worn out- ♥
im soooo tired of being in this house.
never once they understood my feelings or why im behaving this way.
today, sarcasm was thrown at me-AGAIN.
it was so demoralising, like ive said nothing, NOTHING, i do will make a difference.
and it fcuking hurts to know that he will always have th attention.
tell me what i can do to make a diff? be rebellious like him?
be a total different me?! destroy my own principles &maruah?
ive suffered too much, yes too much.
pleaseee just show me th love like you showed him. im begging you both.
why cant you both just treat me and him th same, no favouritism?
ive numbed my heart to have any pity on him, so what if he's my brother?
ive made mistakes in pampering him all this while.
after what he did to me during my birthday week, i cant bring myself to even care for him.
its so frustrating to recall back what he did. my clothes, my presents. he ruined it all.
no one, and i mean NOT A SINGLE SOUL would understand my agony.
argh! why am i being so weak now?
im tired. im worn out. im broken. you just dont understand.
9:26:00 am
in the color of grace.