♥Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Eidul Fitri- ♥
current song: Teman Istimewa - Taufik Batisah.
current craving: fried carrot cake (:
2nd day of raya:
since yesterday th family didnt go out to raya, more of layan-ing th relatives coming over,
today th whole family went out to beraya lahh kann.
and baba had an off day today, so he drive Kak Mah's car for th jalan raya.
3cars, Kak Ilah &family, Kak Ain &family, lastly baba mama &me.
i was like having a great time in th car, had th back seat all to myself cuz th nieces went with Kak Ilah.
adik went in Kak Ain's car with hafiizd and naqi. i was seating veryyy comfortably.
no noise, no kecohness, no stuffyness. COOL!
first house went to Nenek Timah's place at tampines.
didnt really do anything, drink a little and chat here n there.
after awhile, we decided to head off to Makdek's place. got my first green packet for th day (:
since Makdek's already expecting us, we head off to her place at simei.
when we arrived, th house was packed with Cik Atem's relatives.
so we just find a place to seat and waited for them to leave..
whoaa Abg Saleh has got himself a new gf.. Kak Shidah was at home, while Abg Nasir was out i think..
ate a little and sat on th couch to munch on th kuih raya, well actually i ate only th kek marble (:
didnt really touch on th kuih raya or th biscuits..
YESSIR! gotten another green packet from Makdek.
i love going to her place, she always gives me money lahh kann even when its not raya. XD
ard 8plus, we head out for Nenek Mon's place plak, also at tampines.
and we had to hurry cuz baba's siblings would be coming over later..
arrived, th usual routine (salam, duduk minum &makan kuih, bobal) den we left th place.
it was quite a quick visit. cuz only nenek &th maid was at home, Mak Leha went out jln raya.
reached home, quickly help kakak to panaskan all th lauk and stuff for th relatives..
ard 9plus they arrived, even Makdek &family too(makdek, cikatem, abg saleh &gf plus kakshidah)
th house was packed with my cousin &aunts &uncles.
ibu &ayah was there too. (duh! ayah is baba's younger brother.)
was too stuffy in my baju kurung, so went to changed into home clothes. felt sooo much better.
around 10plus 11 th relatives decide to head home. that means.... collection lahh babe!
Macam biaser jugak, gotten from CikTipah &CikKadir, CikMalia, CikHasnah, Ibu&ayah &even Abg Saleh.
like th first time ever i get a green packet from Abg Saleh. hahahahs, dah kerje lahh kann mesti kene kasi (:
okay i guess thats all for now.
in th car.3rd day or raya:
well today didnt really go to much house, only went to KakSam's house for th kenduri.
Kenduri for Makngah cuz she just came back from her ramadhan umrah.
was there from 3plus to 5plus. den went home with th parents.
both kakak went back to malaysia today, but Kak Ilah would be back on th 25th for some wedding thingy here in singapore.
i was feeling veryy lethargic lahh seyy. wasnt in th best mood actually.
after maghrib, CikIdah came over with her husband &her daughter(Kak Jannah).
we're actually expecting for Maktimah &her family over, cuz she said she would be coming over after maghrib.
skali, she sampai our place was already 10plus.. whoaa tuu bukan maghrib lagik, tu dh lepas isyak. LOL.
once th guests left our place, i quickly upload my pictures to th comp.
and so here i am blogging bout my raya this year. nto much excitement as i expected.
im really looking forward to having th raya outing with my friends.
but im wondering when? and do they really wanna have it this yr? cuz last yr they cancel it. ):
i really hope for th raya outing this year. i really do.
so to whoever that is planning for th raya outing, pleasepleaseplease make it happen :D
me &2 of my nieces.after we came back from Bedok.i was bored &tired.camwhoring sure helps alot.this baju kurung was actually 2yrs ago punye lahh kann.still fits comfortably (:never get enough of it.
2:33:00 pm
in the color of grace.
♥Sunday, October 14, 2007
Salam Lebaran- ♥
2:09:00 pm
in the color of grace.
♥Saturday, October 13, 2007
getting in th mood- ♥
current song: Sesuci Lebaran - Siti Nurhaliza
current mood: YAYY YAYY BESOK RAYA(:
today started off with major shite stuff happening to me. wth.....
i was all ready with everything done from face to hair and top, den when i was about to wear my skirt,
th zip of th skirt got stuck! i was like wtF!
seriously, this skirt have been giving me th 'stucked zip' problem from th first day i bought it. damn it mayn!
it was already 2:30pm, and im supposed to meet mar at 3pm at my hse busstop.
to make it worst, th 'postpone outing' msg didnt get to be sent to her, STUPID PHONE!
argh! was so fcuked up that i wanna spit out th vulgarities, but den i stop myself.
i realise th msg didnt get sent when i received mar's msg saying 'okay im on my way now.'
i was like 'heh? she didnt get my msg ke? i tot i sent her alread??'
told her my whole situation, in th end went to ransack my whole wardrobe to find an outfit to go out.
manage to just get into something that fits. but uncomfortably. -____-''
sister was sooo kind and patience enough to wait for me to get dress &get ready all over again.
THANKYOU! &BIYANNAYO FOR MAKING YOU WAIT. she's th best i tell you.
&i owe her an oreocheesecake treat! just tell me when you want it, den we go get it okay?
anyways went to raffles city to withdraw my money before heading off to city link mall.
cause i was getting my shades from SIX.. and th necklace too.
so yeah. got th stuff and we head for TKC next, sissy wanna get her shawl from there.
will cut th entry short cause im VERYYY tired.
so far ive gotten my whole shopping spree, but im still missing my liquid eyeliner. ):
okay lets do our raya stuff cheklist:
baju kurungs- CHECKED
accessories- CHECKED
new heels- CHECKED
new shades- CHECKED
handbag/clutch- CHECKED
perfume- CHECKED
shawl- CHECKED
okay i guess thats all baahh.. yupyup! like i said, only left with th eyeliner to get.
so yeah.. im ending it here now, need to help with th finishing touches in th house.
will update more soon okays.. hopefully(:
OH! OH! OH! before i forget, here's something that makes me happy!
KAMSAHAMIDA KAKAK FOR THAT AWESOME GUESS HANDBAG!
I LOVE IT! I LOVE IT! I LOVE IT! I LOVE IT!
and mind you, ITS ORIGINAL OKAYS! :D
that shades of mine (:cityhall train station; shades are totally LOVED (:simply love it (:new shades + new necklace = HAPPY ME (:my '07 raya collection; groovy black (:baba was making that face when i showed him my collection. -_-''first sis &her husband.filling beras into th ketupat.
1:14:00 pm
in the color of grace.
♥Thursday, October 11, 2007
awesome outing- ♥
current song: Izinkan Ku Pergi - Kaer Azami
current mood: tired, sleepy.
today went for our raya heels shopping, with both of th younger sisters.
too bad zara couldnt join us, she had to be at her grandma's place to help clear up for raya.
i was feeling a little lethargic at first, i think cuz i didnt really get to sleep yesterday night.
keep getting awaken every 15mins or so of dozing off.
and furthermore, accompanied mama to pasar geylang in th morning.
yar! M O R N I N G. from 9plus all th way up till 12plus.
went to go buy adik's baju melayu first before heading off to buy th ingredients for raya's feast.
ohh! mama bought me this 2 veryy sweet shawl from first lady.
damn nice! and it suits all of my baju kurung this year. yupyup! all 4baju kurung! *beams*
once reached home, quickly bathe and changed. meeting mar at 2.30pm.
and yeah, she's ALWAYS late lahh kann.. LOL.
i was feeling very sleepy while waiting for her at th busstop opp. eunos primary.
luckily got th hot weather to keep me awake.
headed down to parkway parade first cuz i wanted to go and change my watch's battery.
well, i sure did a little shopping too at Dorothy. bought one top &2 tank top.
pretty much satisfied, we head off for suntec city den.
since jann said she has reserved th pair of heels she wanted at th novo outlet at suntec,
so all 3 of us headed down there.
mar &myself too wanted to get our raya heels. eyeing tinkerbell outlet. 3pairs @$53.90!
damn cheap right? one pair would approximately be ard 18bucks. okay lahh tuu..
jann got her heels already and off we went to marina's tinkerbell to get our heels.
didnt plan to get myself a very awesome deal at there.
bought 2pairs of heels, one brown &a black pair. *snigger*
i pity jann cuz she cn get even cheaper n nicer heels at tinkerbell instead of novo.
her pair of heels is like even more expensive than my 2pairs of heels. OH.MY.GOD(janice's style)
yar mayn! so th veryy mahal lahh kann.. alaa asalkan dier bahagia sudah lahh ehh..
since jann had to be home before buke, we quickly finish off our shopping spree.
mar &me headed down to changi airport to do our little "night class" studying.
break fast at BK and damn, we both were SOOOO bloated. seriously!
and i have no idea why im feeling so bloated, that is so not me.
at that point of time, was wishing for jann to be there as our tongsampah. we didnt manage to finish up.
we decided to walked around after did alittle of studying, went to th toilet to camwhore,
Cocoa Tree to buy stuff tht satisfy our sweet tooth &th viewing area to see if we cn lepak there.
unfortunately, th viewing area is "conquer" by group of minahs &ceenas so we decide to just walked around.
eating our gummytreats &jellybeans while walking around aimlessly, really cheered me up.
since its was kinda penuh with people there, we just head off for my crib.
to continue with our camwhoring, but this time with th heels we bought(:
bumped into AbgQahar while we're walking ard th airport. well not a surprise since he's working there.
reached my crib, and its already around 10.15.
we chat, gossiped, camwhored &literally went nuts together lahh kann..
she had fun camwhoring with my shawl around her head, trying to be 'rini' in th show Hikmah. LOL.
she's really giler i tell you, she keeps camwhoring and talking to my stuff eeyore(spiderdonk).
ohgosh! what telah happen to my little sister? someone pleasee seek help for her can? XD
ard 11plus she head for home, faiz fetched her home.
i quickly went to have a nice shower before heading off to my dreamland. was so tired lah.
but its nice to finally get to get out of th house. i can really go insane being in th house for tooo long.
anyways, i'll end here aites.. nightey nights people(:
its just the same us that you knew (:we're reallyyy bloated. =X break fast at that place(:she said we went into th wrong cabin. LOLtold you she's nuts.. XD OUR RAYA HEELS! (:
trying them on ¬ forgetting to camwhore.th shawl mama bought for me (:
2:50:00 pm
in the color of grace.
♥Wednesday, October 10, 2007
worn out- ♥
im soooo tired of being in this house.
never once they understood my feelings or why im behaving this way.
today, sarcasm was thrown at me-AGAIN.
it was so demoralising, like ive said nothing, NOTHING, i do will make a difference.
and it fcuking hurts to know that he will always have th attention.
tell me what i can do to make a diff? be rebellious like him?
be a total different me?! destroy my own principles &maruah?
ive suffered too much, yes too much.
pleaseee just show me th love like you showed him. im begging you both.
why cant you both just treat me and him th same, no favouritism?
ive numbed my heart to have any pity on him, so what if he's my brother?
ive made mistakes in pampering him all this while.
after what he did to me during my birthday week, i cant bring myself to even care for him.
its so frustrating to recall back what he did. my clothes, my presents. he ruined it all.
no one, and i mean NOT A SINGLE SOUL would understand my agony.
argh! why am i being so weak now?
im tired. im worn out. im broken. you just dont understand.
9:26:00 am
in the color of grace.
♥Monday, October 08, 2007
biyannayo- ♥
IM SORRY.
IM SORRY, IF WE'VE RUINED IT FOR YOU.
BIYANNAYO):
6:38:00 pm
in the color of grace.
♥Sunday, October 07, 2007
biased- ♥
i seriously dont know what im ought to do no more.
everyone in this house is being so unfair towards me.
why treat him with so much more love than me? im your child too!
freak lah! I HATE THIS, SERIOUSLY!
no matter what i do, it cant take that attention away from him. NOTHING.
oh come on. why you keep being SOOO biased? its so unfair.
why do you keep treating him nicely even after he's being a total ASSHOLE and disrespectful towards both of you?!
SO WHAT IF HE'S TH ONLY SON IN THIS HOUSE?! FCUK ARH!
that doesnt give him th rights to get and have EVERYTHING he wants &asked for.
you both are being VERYYYYY UNFAIR!
i'll be very content if you both were to treat me half as nice as you treat him. I WILL.
im just so crushed right now. nothing i do or achieve will let me have tht love you both showered him.
sometimes i just wish to end my life. at least it'll stop th hurting right away.
im tired of trying to be happy and cheerful. cause its not me right now, im not feeling like that.
im tired of always trying to be th nice one, but in th end im still not th favourite one.
argh! damn it lah! this is so frustrating.
you guys may say im childish fighting for love from my parents,
but dont you judge me if you dont have a SINGLE CLUE of what im going thru.
you wouldnt wanna mess with me right now, cause im seriously not IN TH MOOD.
1:31:00 am
in the color of grace.
♥Saturday, October 06, 2007
argh!- ♥
I SERIOUSLY HOPE YOU'LL DISFIGURE YOUR FCUKING FACE WITH ALL OF THAT PIERCING!
DAMN IT! YOU NEVER FAIL TO PIST ME OFF!
ARGH! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH UHH!
WHEN WILL YOU LET ME OFF SIA?!?
4:25:00 pm
in the color of grace.
♥Friday, October 05, 2007
cry- ♥
"The first cut is indeed, the deepest."
6:26:00 pm
in the color of grace.
emotional- ♥
okay raya is just around th corner, and im not hyper bout it.
though get all new baju kurung but something just doesnt feel right.
i wonder what isit either. haiishh.
been feeling kinda emotional of late, have no idea why oso.
suddenly im missing tompok )':
this year, would be th second raya without him around. i miss him.
wonder what he's been up to up there......
gosh! what am i thinking mayn!
stop it fee! STOP IT lahh kann.
haiyaaaa. dont know lah, just dont feel happy somehow.
like as if inside of me feeling SO empty. yeah, very empty indeed.
and th thought of Olvl arriving within 2weeks time. GAHH!
now that seriously FREAKS ME OUT!
DIE! but i dont wish to fail again this time round.
i wanna go to poly. i really do. been eyeing on tht ECH course.
k i think i better stop this crap before i bore you even more.
take care for now. night people(:
"Cause a part of me is dead, and in th ground."
1:53:00 pm
in the color of grace.
♥Thursday, October 04, 2007
crushed- ♥
" IT'S NOT OKAY. IM NOT OKAY. "
dont ask me why, im just not feeling okay.
it sucks to feel this way. YOU SUCK!
ARGH! why does this ALWAYS happens to me? !
why do people keep doing this to me?
do i like trust people easily and readily?
im trying to give it a chance here. this friendship.
you very well should know what im like.
if i were to fall out with someone,
count yourself lucky if we get to be friends again.
whats th point of me gving it a try,
when you fcuking DONT TRUST &have a lil bit of FAITH in me.
why do you always doubt me? !
am i not worth your trust?
COME ON! give me a break.
5:41:00 am
in the color of grace.
♥Wednesday, October 03, 2007
home- ♥
HOME.
by Daughtry.
I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.
Well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.
The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love, it makes true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.
So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.
Oh, well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
I'm going home
i am so in lurve with this song. no idea why but i just am..
5:40:00 pm
in the color of grace.
spiderDONK- ♥
current song: Growing Pains - Omarion
current mood: senseless.
LITTLE SISTER MADE MY DAY today, despite my clothes crisis tht im having earlier.
she came over to study with me, and asked me a few maths questions.
help her with those im sure of, some sure got my brain work SO HARD.
some i cant even answer them, well i know i can but th brain just not coorperating.
stop for awhile to break fast with mama n baba.
mama cooked th delicious sweet &sour fish. YUMMY! i loike!
anyways, we're slacking after buke, was chatting away literally going insane.
both of us we're talking about stuff that makes no sense..
EVERY sentence, there would be th word S E N S E. LOL. stupid i know.
but it was effing hilarious lahh kann.. i laughed like so hard. till stomach pain.
now im having my mense cramp.. first 3days, always like tht one.. haiyeerrr
well, all i know is that im happy and was very contented having her company.
saranghaeyo sister(:
it got me thinking, HARD!
she was camwhoring away.
i was really solving th question okay.
hahahahs. this picture got me laughing.
that is spiderDONK and his new buddy.
devil &angel. (:
2:20:00 pm
in the color of grace.