♥Saturday, September 30, 2006
F&N day Out Photos ! ! ♥
Cindy and me at the train platform . :) Cindy, Daniel, me and Mdm Maz posing for the camera . Cindy, Daniel and me . twist ^-^V
F&N students 2006 . :))
2:50:00 pm
in the color of grace.
F&N DAY OUT ! ! ! ♥
I sure had fun today ! Lotsa fun ! Today went out with the f&n students . We have planned to treat Mdm Maz at Seoul Garden cuz its is so called a belated Teachers' Day gift from us .
First meet up with Cindy at the aljunied mrt den we headed to Bugis together . Once reached there, we waited for Mario, Denny & Sherwin to arrive . Den Mario said tt he & Sherwin is alreadi at the control station . So we went up and waited for Denny to arrive . lols . At first wen we go meet with Mario & Sherwin, I was the onli one wearing white . diao ! the rest was wearing black . waaah seei . den the more 'exciting' thing is tt wen Denny arrived, he ALSO wearing white . shit mayn ! den as expected, the rest started to tease me & Denny . They named us couple of the day . diao ! lmao .
We went up to buy the tickets to watch movie . weeee ! we watched Rob B Hood ! the baby so so CUTE la ! and wanna noe sumthg? sumone actually cried while watching the show . I mean the part where the baby was sent to the so-called-grandfather . hahas . diao !
After the movie, we went jalan2 first cuz waiting for Chermaine and tjah to arrived with Daniel (Cindy's son) . cuz staff of the seoul garden says tt we need to have everybody there before we can go in to the Seoul Garden . like wad ever . Once Cher arrived, we all went in Seoul Garden to eat . weee ! I was so fcuking hungry la . didnt eat for one whole day, not cuz I'm fasting but I cant fast for the moment. We start to eat first cuz Mdm Maz says tt she'll be arriving later cuz of her prayers . so the moment she arrived, most of us are alreadi bloated . hahas . weeeee !
After the dinner, all of us headed to the fountain cuz wanna take pictures . but den the fountain no water . like diao ! so just took picture outside Bugis Parco . den the guys went their separate ways while us, the ladies, accompany Mdm Maz to the bazaar at Kampong Glam cuz she wanna go see how's the bazaar is like . den walked and walked in the bazaar for about 1/2 hr den we all went out cuz seriously the bazaar ish so so boring . den we went back to Bugis Mrt Station to take train home .
Well Cindy alight with Tjah & Daniel cuz she sending them home, Mdm Maz alight at Paya Lebar cuz she meeting her nephew to go see th bazaar at Geylang . I alight at Eunos to return to my Home Sweet Home . was so tiring today but no swt cuz I definitely had lotsa fun ! If only the rest of the guys came along with us I bet you tt it'll be more kecoharable one . but some of them are cash tight and some parents dun allow . haish but no swt . I seriously ENJOYED myself with the gang ! ! ! :))
2:06:00 pm
in the color of grace.
♥Wednesday, September 27, 2006
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heyhos! just came back home . had a tiring day today but it was no doubt fun fun fun ESP wen i'm out with my lil sister & the godfather ! wooohooo . yea at first went out with sotong, elephant and blob to suntec to watch movie . took a cab there blob paid for the cab fare cuz she tired and dun wanna take train or bus . den went to the cinema to see wad mavie to watch . haiz . not much choice . and elephant was kinda rushing for tyme cuz she cnt go home late . haish . not fun lei . was thinking of having lotsa fun but, ouh nvm . so in the end we watch the banquet which is at 1600hrs . cuz tts the earliest show tt is showing . actually, I dun realli know wads the show ish realli about . I wanted to watch pulse or the host but elephant and blob wasn't interested . So had no other choice but to watch it . den went galivanting around the suntec city mall while waiting to go up to the cinema . went to the *fountain of wealth and took photos there . heex . but the photos are with sotong . waiting for her to sent it to me . called dad to asked his permission to break fast outside with my frens . hehes . he says yes ! weeeeee ! so immediately sms jann bout it but she cnt make it . her dad doesn't allow it . den sms mar to ask her out to break fast with me even though she isnt fasting . hehes . :p was msging with her till we're in the cinema and the show's about to start . I tell u the show was so god damn boring ! I cnt stand it mayn . den halfway thru the show, cher and elephant left the cinema . cuz elephant cnt stay long . den cher oso going out later at nite so she needs to get home . now left with me & sotong . omg ! both of us were like rotting thruout the show la ! seriously . i think i wasted my 7 bucks for tt show . at least sotong gt her free ticket . wah seyy ! no fair . but nvm la . i noe tt I going out with my lil sister later . heex . kes . after the show ended, wen to the toilet cuz sotong ish flooding . den asked her to accompany me wait for mar & faiz to arrive at suntec . so we continue to wonder about the suntec mall . went to many shops . den went into toy'r'us to fool around . hahas . had fun sia in the toy'r'us with sotong . so many toys . kids nowadays are so fcuking lucky la . so many different kinds of toys to have fun with, unlike us wen we're younger . weeee ! spent for dunnoe how long in there . den it was 1905hrs alreadi . so I asked sotong to accompany me go coffee bean to buy a drink so tt I can break fast . after went in to coffee bean, we went in carrerfor(its tt how u spell it?) hees . den finally went outside to wait at the main entrance for the princesse and the prince to come . hahas . both of us were looking like shtupid monkeys sia . lols . finally they arrived . den we split up, sotong went home while me, mar & faiz went to the kopitiam to go and break our fast . weeee! both me & mar had mee soto while faiz had nasi with some side dishes . den we left the place after eating and headed to the bazaar near bugis . hehe . while on our way to the bazaar, I saw lots of bags tt I am so interested in and mar saw wallets tt she wanna buy . hehes . den went to the bazaar . took bus and alight at the bus stop near bugis village . suprisingly, we saw jann's bro at the bus stop . whoa! whoa ish right . hehe . lucky jann wasnt with us, if not bugis can be the next medan perang seyy . lols . kes . the bazaar was seriously BORING ! yea tts right, BORING ! mostly food and some items which are not interesting . so decide to head back home . took 63 and the bus was so packed . onli got to sit down wen we're at balam road there . damn mayn . k da . I have to post it now cuz blogger gt problem with the connection . fcuk ! kes .
1:30:00 pm
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♥Tuesday, September 26, 2006
SG IDOL!! ♥
YEA!! HADY MIRZA WON SG IDOL!! woooooohoooooo! YAYYNESS! :)) HE'S THE NEXT BIG THING TAT S'PORE CAN BE PROUB OF!!
12:45:00 pm
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she! ♥
The sister tat I treasured the most.... is now gone far away from me. She chooses to distant herself away from me, wen she didnt even do nothing wrong. haish. sad-ed. :'(
6:35:00 am
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♥Monday, September 25, 2006
keeping it all to myself! ♥
After toking with tiers and chermaine bout stuff, I realised somthings. I've realised tat I'm the one hu ish always thinking too much, I'm the one hu keeps blaming myself for everything. just like how I did wen I see my family in a state tat is beyong hope. Ever since young, I keep blaming on myself for the broken family tat I come from, since my brother was still immature in understanding the things tt are going around us. Now after 16 yrs, I still do have the habit of blaming myself for everything tat happened around me. Tat goes the same for the recent events tat had happened. I dun blame my sisters. I didnt says tt they are blaming me. I am the one hu blames myself for everything. I hate myself. I hate the person tat ish inside of me. I dun wanna fall to pieces, I just wanna sit and be around you. I dun wanna talk bout it. I dun wanna conversation, I just wanna cry my heart out in front of you. but i just dun have the courage to do just tat. I am so so so sorry. Sorry for everything tat's happening.
4:31:00 am
in the color of grace.
♥Sunday, September 24, 2006
why am I fated to have tish life? ♥
I dunnoe why I have been feeling like as if I'm so tired. like as if all of my energy are being drained out from my body. tish month had been the most tragedic one for me. well first I nearly lost my IC and other important document, den awkwardness starts to rise in the frenship, den my daddy is ill and now everything around me starting to change.
Wad I am afraid of most now ish losing my dad. the dad tat I have always known to be the one hu always protect me. the dad whom I looked upon as sumone whom I have always trust and loved. Now tat he ish not in his best shape, I felt so helpless. I dun know wad I should do. Suddenly my future seems to be blurry. I dun even know wads gonna happen to me in future if daddy realli leave us, our family. I feel so sad looking and thinking about the things tat have been happening around me. I mean, why cnt some people just try to understand wad i am going thru. understand my feelings, my situation and my thoughts. Well I know tat they are NOT me, and I am fated to go thru my life like tis. So they dun noe wad I feel, wad I think and wad I going thru with. Well everything around me has changed. and I mean everything. Am I to be blame for the changes? Am I in the wrong for typing all of tish in my blog? Is a sin to tell others of wad I realli feel inside for so long? Wad is tis? Wad kind of logic ish tt? Why cnt you people out there try to understand wad the hell I am going thru???? Wadever I say and write are always being mistaken by others. Wadever I do are always wrong in front of others. I am always the one hu ish at fault. I am always the one hu didnt think positively. I am always the one hu dun understand u guys. I am always the one hu likes to offend people. I am always the bad one. Aint I? Isnt tat wad you wanna see and hear?? well yea. so blame all of it on me kes. I shall appreciate everything. And I shall thank you for tat. yea. blame all of it on me! Go on! I know tat I'm not the fun and cheerful type of person. unlike you people. yea. I am the outcast. happy aren't you? you're happy seeing me going thru all of this BULLSHIT. you're happy tat you're not suffering like me. well yea. I am suffering. My dad's life ish so unpredictable. No one knows whether he'll be living to see the sunrise tomorrow. Crap. why am I even explaining myself to you guys.
*Is it just an excuse? an excuse for us being separated later on? an excuse for all tat has been happening? why do life have to be like tish? which should I believe? both are very important to me. why isit so difficult to make a choice? I am so confused, but yet I've got no time to think bout it. my mind ish preoccupied with matters tat are far more important. forgive me for wad has happen. I am so so sorry if I have ever offended u guys in any way. sisters lurve will never fade away.*
12:48:00 pm
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does our presence BOTHER you two so much?? ♥
hey blog! you know wad, I suddenly felt like expressing all the things tt I have been keeping deep down in my heart. well some might think tt i'm trying to show off my thoughts but hu cares! and some might also say tt i should give some privacy to my thoughts but I think tt I have to let those to visit my blog to understand & KNOW how it feels like to be in my place. be in my shoes.
Ouhwells. I dun think tt its just me hu ish thinking too much cuz there are people beside me hu felt the same way as I do. well, have you ever felt like the people around you creating some awkwardness even among their gurlfriends? yea. tts how I felt for the past few weeks. Mar and I are now getting closer which ish great. cuz I have left certain things out. I realised tat I wasnt there wen she might need me. but now, we have lots and lots of things to catch up on. Though the five of us may seems to be together always, but ppl just dun noe tt among us there's hatred, sadness, awkwardness and anger. Ppl will always think tat we're happy together, well tts ish just so wrong. No doubt tt we always enjoys each other's company but recently, after all tat had happened the joy of having each other's company have turned to simply awkwardness which makes us uncomfortable with each other. Haish wat cn I say if tts how they felt. But I do hope tt we could always be like how we used to be. No hatred, no sadness and absolutely NO awkwardness. Sometimes I do wonder whether mar and I seem important in our "sisters' " life. but wad we discover recently shocked us. We suddenly felt tt does our presence BOTHER you so much till you just have to find ways to get rid of us? I mean like do u have to give excuses so that you guys can go away as far as possible from? I mean.... ouh nvm. I dun think ppl are actually understanding bout our situation. some may just pressume tat we feel jealous of them but tts not the reason. we have never felt any jealousy among us. Cuz we trust each other tts why. the trust tt we have means alot to us. But why do I feel tt recently things are getting from bad to worst. to me, things have DEFINITELY changed. Wad had happened to our frenship? All of us seems to be drifting apart. but where lies the problem?
K I know tt my entry might hurt sumone. but tts just how I feel. I just wanna make sum things clear. haish. if it ish realli fated to be like tish den wad cn i say animore. if our presence does bother you so much den I realli have got nothing to say but just hope tt you'll be happy. Its just disheartening to know tt our frenship have to turn out tish way. so sad-ed.
mar* : hey sister! dun think too much kes bout wad we talked bout on msn. dun worry. the angel & the devil will always work together. lols ((:
tiers* : hey darlz! tankieuu for the advice tt you told me over the phone. appreciate it so much! great having you around. :))
3:11:00 am
in the color of grace.
♥Saturday, September 23, 2006
nvr go skool. ♥
heyhos! what the hell am I doing here on a Friday @ 11:13am, which ish a normal skool day? Like duh! I am at home on my comp blogging. hehes. pity my classmates they have to suffer the feeling of despair wen they received their papers back. at least I received my marks over the phone, which ish not as bad though. hahas. but one BAD thing to not go to skool and stay at home ish at BOREDOM ish sure to overcome u wan. lols. cuz tts wad I'm feeling now. very the bored sitting here with nothing to do except blogging and chatting and listening to music. ouh wells. gtg now. wanna go bathe first. lols.
myclassmates> CIndy, Tjah & Cher* :Heyhos! sorry didnt come school today. wasn't feeling well lor. hahas. but tanx again for taking my papers. lurve you guys! :))
2:18:00 am
in the color of grace.
♥Friday, September 22, 2006
bad news!!!! ♥
OMG! I just receive bad news!! Bout my daddy.
Well daddy & mummy came back from the massage parlour at Kampung Melayu. he was looking fine wen he reached home. but mum shocked me with wad happen at the massage parlour. She told me tat he fainted while the having his legs massage by the person there. of course my mum was shocked and she panicked. but thank god tat he regain his conciousness wen the people there & my mum recite sum prayers from the Al-Quran. OuhGod! no wonder I have been feeling kinda uneasy since I reached home just now and wen daddy & mummy going out to the massage parlour. its actually a bad sign. haish. I almost lost him just now. and wads worst was I wasn't beside them wen tish thing happened! arrrggghhhh! I cnt forgive myself if sumthing bad happen to daddy. I realli feel like crying. cuz I felt tat I heaven been a good daughter to the family. *sobs* T_T
6:29:00 am
in the color of grace.
Prelims are OVER! ♥
Yesh. finally Prelims are OVER! Kes I noe tat I shudn't be celebrating cuz I did so badly for my Prelims. Haish. for now, all I can say is "Who cares! I cnt do anything if tats the fact!". Science Paper 1 was pure CRAP to me. Yea. PURE CRAP! hahas. Of course la. I didn't revise a single thing for Prelims. Even my f&n was utterly disgraceful. Haish. No hope for me alreadi! Cnt blame anione except for myself cuz I didn't put in the effort. well- not tat I dun want to put in my effort, just tat I dun feel like it. And I have no mood to study. K watever la. hack cares!
Well just reached home. took 63 with Mar & Faiz. was so silent throughout the journey home. well kinda felt like I was abandoned. Jann & Zara went to Toa Payoh! dunnoe la. but I had tish kinda feeling. I feel as if they hate me. hate my personality, the person tat I am. Haish. maybe its just me tat is thinking too much, but dunnoe la. the way both of them communicate with me... feels like sumthing is wrong. like they are keeping sumthing away from me knowing it. I'm feeling guilthy by having tis thoughts in me. but I cnt help it if I kept doubting tis. I'm feeling guilthy & hurt. I dunnoe why. but I just feel tt way. Haish. Izit just me thinking too much cuz of all the stress, OR watever tat I'm doubting and feeling rite now are true? Ouh well, I shudn't think tis way. shudn't be thinking negatively bout my sisters. I shud stop myself from feeling tish way. but one problem. How do I do tat? arrrrrrrggggghhhhh! I'm breaking down inside. please help me sumone! I realli need to share wads inside of me to sumone. I realli need to tok to sumone. sumone hu can listen to me. to all the things tat I have to say. just listen to me but I want tt person to be like the waves of the sea, just listen to my situation but wen it come to the end let it go with the waves there. a person hu cud just pretend tt none of it take place after wad I told them. haish. is sumone out there fulfill the expectations tt I'm asking for?
mar* : hey sister u & I will always be the clueless one hor. hahas. dun worry we both will sure end up in the same poly, except different course la. like duh! hehe. hugs you sister. ((:
heaven&hell corpz* : i dunnoe wad went wrong but I just felt tt we all are turning to strangers nowadays. :(
tjah* : hahas. I'm having fun with ur tagboard. lols. btw changed ur link name alreadi. hope u'll like it. :X
3:22:00 am
in the color of grace.
♥Thursday, September 14, 2006
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I realli lurve this song. and when it is put together with my favourite show, WOOOOOHOOOO! tats fantabulous & perfecto! EnjoyS!!
3:57:00 am
in the color of grace.
♥Monday, September 11, 2006
the video ♥
This is the video of the story tat I was telling you guys about earlier. Do enjoy it!
So touching right?? hahas. I know. cause I almost cried watching tat video. lols.
2:41:00 pm
in the color of grace.
♥Wednesday, September 06, 2006
they are deprived of their childhoods. ♥
They are DEPRIVED of their CHILDHOODS. ((:
2:03:00 pm
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all gurls outing! ♥
Kes we sisters had FUN FUN FUN just now la! was the greatest day of my life! weeeee~ my sisters realli made my day! we joked, laughed, gigled and crapped together.. hahas.. and not forgetting we took lots and lots and lots of photos too... kes.. shall tell u abit bout our trip to changi beach!
Well meet Jann & Zara at the ite bus stop.. we went to the bus stop outside skool to decide where we are actually heading.. so wen we cnt decide, I asked them to accompany me go take out money at the atm near Balam Road there.. so after tat walked to the 7-11 bus stop.. finally decided go SP eat our lunch.. so we msged Mar to meet us at SP.. went to POPULAR to go buy my 'lost' pens.. after tat we to the stall which sell all types of earrings and necklace.. me and Jann bought the same pair of earrings just tat its different colour.. well mine ish green while her's ish white.. I lurve it! simply lurve it cuz its MICKEY!!!! well after tat, we went in to KFC to have our lunch.. the three of us crapped like no one's business while waiting fer our dearie lil sister(mar) to arrive.. we waited so long till Zara ish so hungry tat she eat Jann's voodoo doll's broomstick... hahas.. so evil and nasty rite? hehes.. wen she finally arrived, we queue up fer our food.. me and Zara sempat seyy mengumpat psl the auntie at the cashier tat ish serving us.. hahas.. biaser ar.. tats wat happened wen the mothernature combine forces with the angel.. well after our lunch, we went to the toilet.. hahas.. as usual, took picture in there.. noe why? cuz find tat the toilet ish my 'classy' place.. lols.. tat sounds so so wrong.. but nvm.. den we went in to Coffee Beans.. bought a mocha ice-blended.. slurp! nice nice.. share it with the 3 sisters... den walked to the bus stop near the Geyllang Market.. wait fer bus no. 2 tat headed to Changi Village.. wanted to chill at Changi Beach.. weeeee! so nice.. it was a very very long bus ride.. wanted to read up my SS in bus but cnt concentrate.. so just went on listening to my mp3.. den wen we finally reached there, we headed to the ferry terminal.. Mar wanted to checked out the price fer a bumboat ride to Pulau Ubin.. well its $2 F.Y.I hahas.. den we headed off to the beach.. once arrived at a suitable sitting area, the 3 sisters of mine started to go on the swings.. hahas.. funny I tell u.. they are deprived of their childhoods! lols.. they laughed and laughed and laughed... non-stop.. den took pictures of them on the swings.. while they were playing on the swings, I actually write notes fer my SS.. how amazing!! hehes.. (see Cher, I'm not naughty lor.. I DID study.. revised actually).. well will update till here onli cuz i'm so frigging tired.. wanna go watch my korean show 'My Lovely Samsoon' so nice.. will update agains..here are some photos fer u guys to enjoy..
In the toilet at SP.. (L-R) mar, me, jann & zara.In the bus otw to Changi Beach.. Jann & Zara.Pictures tat Jann took on our way to Changi Beach.My lovely bag, which is now Jann using, tat I lurve!Sumthg got to do with the police thingy.. ahahs.. i oso not sure..
1:55:00 pm
in the color of grace.
♥Sunday, September 03, 2006
Juke Box! ♥
Real Love-by Massari
Girl, girl I'm goin outta my mind
And even though I don't really know you
I must've been runnin outta time
I'm waiting for the moment I can show you
And baby girl I want you to know
I'm watching you go
I'm watching you pass me by
It's real love that you don't know about
Baby I was there all alone
When you'd be doin things that i would wit you
I picture you and me all alone
I'm wishing you were someone i can talk to
I gotta get you outta my head
But baby girl I gotta see you once again, again
It's real love that you don't know about
Girl, girl I'm goin outta my mind
And even though I don't really know you
I must've been runnin outta time
I'm waiting for the moment I can show you
And baby girl I want you to know
I'm watching you go
I'm watching you pass me by
It's real love that you don't know about
(Every night and now) when I go to sleep
I couldn't stop dreaming about you
Your love has got me feeling kinda weak
I really can't see me without you
And now you're runnin round in my head
I'm never gonna let you slip away again
It's real love that you don't know about
Every now and then when
I want youI wish that I could tell you that I want you
If I could have the chance to talk wit cha
If I could have the chance to walk wit cha
Then I would stop holding it in
And never have to go through this again, again
It's real love that you don't know about
Girl, girl I'm goin outta my mind
And even though I don't really know you
I must've been runnin outta time
I'm waiting for the moment I can show you
And baby girl I want you to know
I'm watching you go
I'm watching you pass me by
It's real love that you don't know about
Today when I saw you alone
I knew I had to come up and hold you
Cuz girl I really gotta let you know
All about the things you made me go through
And now she lookin at me in the eye
And now you got me hopin I ain't dreamin again, again
It's real love that you don't know about
Every now and then when I want you
I wish that I could tell you that I want you
If I could have the chance to talk wit cha
If I could have the chance to walk wit cha
Then I would stop holding it in
And never have to go through this again, again
It's real love that you don't know about
Girl, girl I'm goin outta my mind
And even though I don't really know you
I must've been runnin outta time
I'm waiting for the moment I can show you
And baby girl I want you to know
I'm watching you go
I'm watching you pass me by
It's real love that you don't know about
You're the one that I want and no one can take it from me
No, no, no, no, no
Even though I don't really know you
I got a lot of love
I really wanna show you
And you'd be right there in front of me
I can see you passin in front of me
No, no, no
Girl I need your love
Baby I need your love
-The End-
3:20:00 am
in the color of grace.
♥Saturday, September 02, 2006
♥Friday, September 01, 2006
pictures! ♥
Kes the photos are a bit blurr cuz its from my lousy old phone. but wadever it ish enjoys~
me and my sotong dear~
the frenship which has been going on fer almost a decade~
We've gone thru so much of misery to be back as frens again~
The smiles on their faces brought joy to me~
We'll forever and always be the bestest of frens~
Friend are like shining stars,
They shine ur life wenever its dark.
Friends are like a pillar of support,
They are there to give you strength.
Friends are easy to find,
They are found all around you.
But good friends hu are willing to
lend you their shoulders to cry on,
are very rare indeed.
2:37:00 pm
in the color of grace.