mendak- ♥
current song: Reason to Believe - Dashboard Confessionals
current mood: moody, sleepy.
been reading Jann's blog..
Ohmygod! she's so emo-ing lahh..
hahahs.. but i think its nice to reminisce th past once in a while.
Yeah.. her entries kinda made me miss th past &hate it at th same time.. LOL.
I miss my secondary school life.. *definitely lahh seyy!
but kinda ironic dont you think?
i mean, i used to keep complaining how sec sch life is a bore and just
plain torturing from th teachers.. dont you agree? i think many would..
i really missed; th waking up early to go to school.
; th ironing of my school uniform.
; th fun we had during lessons.
; th teasing &bullying of teachers. (esp mr chong!) XD
; th smuggling of food into class during recess time.
; th awesome games during PE lessons.
; th ouh-so-boring-but-useful maths lesson by Mr Akram.
; th escaping of remedial classes.
hahahas.. classic i tell you =DD
so much fun but yet so tiring at th same time..
i mean who wouldnt be tired of studying you tell me? surely not right..
I MISS IT! ALL OF IT!
ohwells you know wad they say; All Good Things Have an End.
yea yea wadever.. LOL.
I hate th past is because i hate somethg that makes me.
I hate it because i can never ran or release myself from it.. NEVER!
I hate knowing that its gonna be with me throughout my life.
I hate it! i seriously do!
I hate th person who is th cause of this.
I hate th person who have caused me so much pain during my childhood.
I hate th person who have caused my heart so much misery.
I hate th person who make me live a life of pain, hurt &tears.
I hate th person who make me hate myself &looking down on myself.
for she is th reason behind all th sufferings i bare in silence.
If only they understad what i went through.
If only they feel it themselves.
If only they knew how much tears i've shed going thru th pain.
If only they knew how much pain i had to bare, so much time i had to waste
throughout this fcuking childhood of mine.
haiishh.. wadever it is, it is only th what 'IFs'..
NO ONE will understand. NO ONE!
because i myself dont understand why am i th one to be in this plight?
why am i th one to accept/receive this fate?
why cant i be like th other kids who really have had experience happy childhood?
why?? destiny?? it sucks! BIG TIME!
