♥Saturday, October 07, 2006
hate my life! ♥
why isit so hard for me to have a good relationship with my brother? why does he always scold me vulgarities? why does he treat me with no respect at all?! why cnt he be like the other brothers who treat their sisters with respect!why am i always the one hu protect him but ended up being unappreciate by him?why cnt he just treat me a little better? i am the one hu always gets hurt. not by the ones hu try to hurt him but by my own brother!I cnt stand it wen my parents treat him like a prince while im like apiece of abandoned piece of belonging !he is the one hu always gets the attention !he is the one hu always gets the love and concern where as i am the one hu always gets the blame! the one hu always being treated like thrash !being scolded and chided and vulgarities thrown at ! why does it seems tt i am not being appreciated?why does it seems tt i am the outcast in tish family?why does it seems tt i am the one hu always have to bear the responsibilities and consequences?is it fair to me ?it is reasonable to me?i dun think so ! !people thinks tt i have a happy family but they dun even have a clueof what i am going thru !I thought tt i could be a sister hu will always be there to care and protect my brotherbut i didnt think tt i could be the one hu needs the protection and care !i will be the one hu will get hurt again and again and again !how i wish tt i could just get away from here !run away from all of tish sufferings tt i have to bear ! all the embarrassment and tears tt i have to withstand !
9:50:00 am
in the color of grace.