♥Friday, September 22, 2006
Prelims are OVER! ♥
Yesh. finally Prelims are OVER! Kes I noe tat I shudn't be celebrating cuz I did so badly for my Prelims. Haish. for now, all I can say is "Who cares! I cnt do anything if tats the fact!". Science Paper 1 was pure CRAP to me. Yea. PURE CRAP! hahas. Of course la. I didn't revise a single thing for Prelims. Even my f&n was utterly disgraceful. Haish. No hope for me alreadi! Cnt blame anione except for myself cuz I didn't put in the effort. well- not tat I dun want to put in my effort, just tat I dun feel like it. And I have no mood to study. K watever la. hack cares!
Well just reached home. took 63 with Mar & Faiz. was so silent throughout the journey home. well kinda felt like I was abandoned. Jann & Zara went to Toa Payoh! dunnoe la. but I had tish kinda feeling. I feel as if they hate me. hate my personality, the person tat I am. Haish. maybe its just me tat is thinking too much, but dunnoe la. the way both of them communicate with me... feels like sumthing is wrong. like they are keeping sumthing away from me knowing it. I'm feeling guilthy by having tis thoughts in me. but I cnt help it if I kept doubting tis. I'm feeling guilthy & hurt. I dunnoe why. but I just feel tt way. Haish. Izit just me thinking too much cuz of all the stress, OR watever tat I'm doubting and feeling rite now are true? Ouh well, I shudn't think tis way. shudn't be thinking negatively bout my sisters. I shud stop myself from feeling tish way. but one problem. How do I do tat? arrrrrrrggggghhhhh! I'm breaking down inside. please help me sumone! I realli need to share wads inside of me to sumone. I realli need to tok to sumone. sumone hu can listen to me. to all the things tat I have to say. just listen to me but I want tt person to be like the waves of the sea, just listen to my situation but wen it come to the end let it go with the waves there. a person hu cud just pretend tt none of it take place after wad I told them. haish. is sumone out there fulfill the expectations tt I'm asking for?
mar* : hey sister u & I will always be the clueless one hor. hahas. dun worry we both will sure end up in the same poly, except different course la. like duh! hehe. hugs you sister. ((:
heaven&hell corpz* : i dunnoe wad went wrong but I just felt tt we all are turning to strangers nowadays. :(
tjah* : hahas. I'm having fun with ur tagboard. lols. btw changed ur link name alreadi. hope u'll like it. :X
3:22:00 am
in the color of grace.