♥Monday, September 25, 2006
keeping it all to myself! ♥
After toking with tiers and chermaine bout stuff, I realised somthings. I've realised tat I'm the one hu ish always thinking too much, I'm the one hu keeps blaming myself for everything. just like how I did wen I see my family in a state tat is beyong hope. Ever since young, I keep blaming on myself for the broken family tat I come from, since my brother was still immature in understanding the things tt are going around us. Now after 16 yrs, I still do have the habit of blaming myself for everything tat happened around me. Tat goes the same for the recent events tat had happened. I dun blame my sisters. I didnt says tt they are blaming me. I am the one hu blames myself for everything. I hate myself. I hate the person tat ish inside of me. I dun wanna fall to pieces, I just wanna sit and be around you. I dun wanna talk bout it. I dun wanna conversation, I just wanna cry my heart out in front of you. but i just dun have the courage to do just tat. I am so so so sorry. Sorry for everything tat's happening.
4:31:00 am
in the color of grace.