♥Sunday, September 24, 2006
does our presence BOTHER you two so much?? ♥
hey blog! you know wad, I suddenly felt like expressing all the things tt I have been keeping deep down in my heart. well some might think tt i'm trying to show off my thoughts but hu cares! and some might also say tt i should give some privacy to my thoughts but I think tt I have to let those to visit my blog to understand & KNOW how it feels like to be in my place. be in my shoes.
Ouhwells. I dun think tt its just me hu ish thinking too much cuz there are people beside me hu felt the same way as I do. well, have you ever felt like the people around you creating some awkwardness even among their gurlfriends? yea. tts how I felt for the past few weeks. Mar and I are now getting closer which ish great. cuz I have left certain things out. I realised tat I wasnt there wen she might need me. but now, we have lots and lots of things to catch up on. Though the five of us may seems to be together always, but ppl just dun noe tt among us there's hatred, sadness, awkwardness and anger. Ppl will always think tat we're happy together, well tts ish just so wrong. No doubt tt we always enjoys each other's company but recently, after all tat had happened the joy of having each other's company have turned to simply awkwardness which makes us uncomfortable with each other. Haish wat cn I say if tts how they felt. But I do hope tt we could always be like how we used to be. No hatred, no sadness and absolutely NO awkwardness. Sometimes I do wonder whether mar and I seem important in our "sisters' " life. but wad we discover recently shocked us. We suddenly felt tt does our presence BOTHER you so much till you just have to find ways to get rid of us? I mean like do u have to give excuses so that you guys can go away as far as possible from? I mean.... ouh nvm. I dun think ppl are actually understanding bout our situation. some may just pressume tat we feel jealous of them but tts not the reason. we have never felt any jealousy among us. Cuz we trust each other tts why. the trust tt we have means alot to us. But why do I feel tt recently things are getting from bad to worst. to me, things have DEFINITELY changed. Wad had happened to our frenship? All of us seems to be drifting apart. but where lies the problem?
K I know tt my entry might hurt sumone. but tts just how I feel. I just wanna make sum things clear. haish. if it ish realli fated to be like tish den wad cn i say animore. if our presence does bother you so much den I realli have got nothing to say but just hope tt you'll be happy. Its just disheartening to know tt our frenship have to turn out tish way. so sad-ed.
mar* : hey sister! dun think too much kes bout wad we talked bout on msn. dun worry. the angel & the devil will always work together. lols ((:
tiers* : hey darlz! tankieuu for the advice tt you told me over the phone. appreciate it so much! great having you around. :))
3:11:00 am
in the color of grace.
