♥Wednesday, June 21, 2006
we're not meant fer each other.. ♥
Guess wat? tat motherfucka made me cry againS! and tish tiMe fer quite the same reason..fark tat motherfucka up la..I dun even noe whether he ish sincere or not..I dun even understand him..How I wish tat we cud just go our own separate ways the pervious time tat we argued with each other..fark him la..all i need now ish the identity of the mystery tagger on ma tagboard...wen I've got it, I finally have a reason to realli TALK it OUT with him..haiz..but sadly tat tagger just tOo timid to give his/her true identity..but I have had some suspicions of the identity of the tagger..but I cnt anihow guess onli rite..I have to get ma 'evidence' straight..haish...well all I noe now ish tat we're not meant fer each other..cuz even after soO much tat we've went thru, he still dun treasure tish relationship..I am foolish to think tat he has changed..I am foolish to think tat he truly lurves me...I am foolish to waste ma time giving ma love and attention to him...wen he, himself isn't being faithful at ALL! I am so so so darn FOOLISH..and now I'm hating maself..hating maself fer being ignorant, fer being such a foolish person...haish...now I'm bidding my final goodbye fer REAL tish time...so more turning back and looking at our PAST! I just wish to move on....and on.......and on....hope u'll understand (WTH, u? understand? hahas..u'll NEVER understand it! NEVER)...heck cares bout u animore..dun ever wish to miss u or even lurve u no more...u have hurt be bad enuff...my wound ish so so deep to be heal rite now................so just leave me alone! now and forever! I dun give a farrking care bout ur calls or MSGes no more..so now u can just F**K OFF outta ma life! the hurt tat u've cause me ish so so darn painful! I cnt even face ma own self...the tears tat I've cried ish hurting ma eyes so terribly...I'm ashamed..ashamed with ma frens...ashamed with the peeps hu noes bout it...I realli think tat WE"RE NOT MEANT FER EACH OTHER! so just leave me alone!
*There are no more tears tat I cud cry,
Everything's inside have gone dry,
How I wish tat I cud just fly,
Now bidding ma final goodbye!
9:38:00 am
in the color of grace.