JUST LIKE A TATTOO. I'll ALWAYS HAVE YOU.

meaningful-

2008-01-15T23:07:00.000+08:00

Is it me or did we agree to love?
tell me why I don’t feel we got enough.
it’s you but what about me?
it seems like you live a life without me.
everything seems to have your time but us,
my space in your heart is closing up
and the place where your picture’s hanging
is the only time that you’re with me.
don’t leave me out here all alone.
I’m still right here where’d you go..

Look around
don’t you feel something missing?
I’m the one you promised you would love
but you got ahead so far away
while I’m holding on,
please turn around.
I see you but i don’t feel you
can’t get your attention to save my love
look back and see me now,
don’t let me down please turn around.

I think I must have gave too much
cause I felt that the road was getting rough.
suddenly I felt lonely out here
I look beside me to find you’re not there.
said you would love and protect me
all I have are the words you left me
here I stand with the plans in my head.
This cant be the kinda love that you said,
dont leave me out here all alone.
I’m still right here where’d you go.

Look around
don’t you feel something missing?
I’m the one you promised you would love
but you got ahead so far away
while I’m holding on
please turn around
I see you but i don’t feel you
can’t get your attention to save my love
look back and see me now,
don’t let me down please turn around.

If you only see the tears I’m crying on my pillow.
that doesnt compare to what your doing to my soul
dont you even know that im in need of love
I’m calling you but you dont seem to hear a thing
I’m losing you now.

Please just look around
don’t you feel something missing
I’m the one you promised you would love
but you got ahead so far away
while I’m holding on
please turn around.
I see you but I don’t feel you.
can’t get your attention to save my love.
look back and see me now
don’t let me down,
please turn around.

dayout-

2008-01-04T12:38:00.000+08:00

YAYY! like finally i get to meetup with my sister.
do you know, we both can just go crazy without doing anything? :D
well, it feels good to be out afterall those shite tht happened at home.. really feels good.
especially with someone there to just listen to me pouring it out.. *sighs*
anyways, we're supposed to meetup at 2:30 @Cityhall, but i was late.. hehehe SORRY!
we went to Cavana at Marinasq for lunch, before tht did stopby Giordano awhile to see Udin..
spend almost half and hour in there just eating and talking..
after that we make a move to go back to Giordano to ask him to meet us up after his work..
sister and i walked ard esplanade and down to th starbucks at One Fullerton to chill..
i guess it is th safest place for us to chill, lagpon it's not tht crowded there..
we had oreocheesecake, chocolate amer &choc frappe while watching Anak Pontianak online..
suddenly it occured to me, this outing had a very familiar feeling..
th same spot, th same couch, th same orders.. it all feels ever so familiar.. i miss my sisters even more!
at ard 6plus 7pm, Udin came and meet us..
we decided to make a move at ard 8 since jann had sch tmr and din has to work.. so yeah!
sempat kite ambik2 gmbr at th bridge while on th way to cityhall mrt station..
sure had loads of fun laughing and just put aside my worries and problems..
Udin making lameass jokes and his usual antics which makes me smile.. "ehh tulang.. ohhh tulang.."
hahahahs, no doubt, sister too cheered me up. i was soo happy th moment i saw her at th mrt station..
OHH! thankyou for taking th train with me up to Eunos. at least ader teman. (:

I LOVE HER EVER SO MUCH!

FEE &JANN.

my most fav photo of us both.
we kinda look like siblings in here. :D

our usual orders.

we kinda look tired though.

saranghaeyo.

Din, Jann &me.

me and th tulang. XD

i love them for cheering me up.

while waiting for th train back home.

JBP-

2008-01-04T06:13:00.000+08:00

here's some photos from my trip to th Jurong Birdpark with th kiddos and sister.
well, even th boring zoo is much more interesting than JBP. like SERIOUSLY!
th place is sooooo mundane, though th features there are nicee.. i think it lack of animal show..
hahhahas, not tht i wanna complain or what lahh, but even th birdshow was boring..
th trainer keep making jokes tht are like making no sense at all.. he laugh at his own jokes..
was telling jann bout th trip thru sms, gosh it's really disappointing.. lucky tht we went in using th free tix..
if not it doesnt worth th 18bucks of admission..
nonetheless, enjoy th pics yeah.. :D

th first stop.

feeding th birds.

toilet break.

my nieces and nephew.

at th penguin showcase.

at th Lory Loft. i really love th toilet at this place..
cuz it's got th view of th place in th photo above.. so nicee!

drive to JB-

2008-01-03T04:02:00.000+08:00

on thursday, sister brought us out to drive up to JB since she wanna fill her car fuel.
so we made a last minute plan to drive up to ayer hitam to Kak Ain's place..
baba didnt tag along as he has to work.. whoaa it's been a whole year since i last went to JB..
can you believe that? lucky there's not much change..
we left th house at ard 2plus, had our lunch at JB's Wisma Persekutuan.. okay lah th food, not tht bad.
after lunch we went to refill th car fuel, and straight head for th highway to Ayer Hitam.
we reached Kak Ain's place at ard 6plus.. and it's my first time visiting her place after what seems like
she have moved house TWICE. yeah twice..
slacked around while sister and Kak Ain went for massage, watched CNWK and Spa Q on tv3..
ard 10plus, sister came back and we went for our dinner before heading back to Singapore..
we left Kak Ain's place at ard midnight.. phew~ tiring! veryy, but i like th night journey so quiet..
we reached JB at ard 1plus 2 in th morning.. went to refill th fuel- AGAIN, and buy some snacks to munch on.
sister stopped by to buy some fruits home.. finally we reached home around 3:30am..

all th photos are taken by my nephew, HADIF.

photos-

2008-01-03T03:36:00.000+08:00

okay ive left my blog to rot long enough, so now im gonna update it..
well just some photos tht are waiting to be uploaded in my folder..
as for this entry, here are th photos from mar's birthday celebration..
but these photos are those taken from my phone, if u wanna see th rest please do visit zara's or jann's blog..
they have uploaded them way before i did.. hahahahahs :/
anyways, i hope mar did have a nice day on her birthday..

this is...... ZARA SEWEL. :D

th christmas decorations are nice.

i love my unni! :D

yup, it's at Parkway Parade.

i wish to have those in my room.. hahaha

jingle bell, jingle bell, jingle all th way...

a brand new year-

2008-01-01T16:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!
GOODBYE 2007; HELLO 2008!
have a happy brand new start(:

Orange decided to drop by.

2007-12-31T22:36:00.000+08:00

Dearest Fi,

Know it's the second time you're reading this, but this time it's published in your blog. Cos, well, I want the whole world to know how I much I love you! (And since that post is private in my blog, so other readers can't read except for you guys. So kena show off sikit pat orang lain. Nyehehehe.)

The second sister. The gila nak mampos one. Another great sister of mine. Among us four, I’ve known you the shortest period of time, but it seems like we’ve been friends for so many years. Oh gosh, there’s just so much to say, I don’t even know where to begin. We’ve gone through the most hurdles in life, quarrels after quarrels, misunderstandings, everything, but we always seemed to pull through those phases and became what we are today. I’ve got so much to thank you for; there aren’t enough words to show the gratitude and respect I hold upon you. I still remember the very first outing we both had 3 years ago. Man, wasn’t that fun? Whacky insane times were always with you, especially our many imaginative moments dating our many celebrities, looking at the cute butts of guys and drooling over their charming smiles, handsome faces and sexy abs. Times spent with you were utmost the greatest, and of course, never ever to be replaced. You were brought on this Earth for a reason, made to be my friend for a reason. So now I know why. It’s the things you do that just make me feel so glad that I know you. You always made me feel great about myself, your encouragements and advices, everything about you. Putting up with my childish acts and prekindergarten behaviour, my paranoia and annoying mad antics, you have been great. Supporting me of my every decision made, you always make me feel wanted. When I’m with you, I can be anything I want. Do whatever I want to my heart’s content, be who I really wanna be. Sky’s the limit, and it just feels so good to be free. And throughout these years, figuring out the things we’re so curios about, and discovering that it takes more than a selfish bitch to separate us. We are inseparable! A girl with such a big heart, always putting others before self. From shopping sprees to walking by the beach, picnics and ordering in, times with you have forever been the greatest. And I’m proud to tell anyone, even a complete stranger, that you are my sister. If we had never crossed paths, I would never have met you, and I wouldn’t be able to know how it feels like to have someone like you in my life. Never have I regretted walking down that particular path, and I am grateful, that someone like you has brought wonders and impact to me. Bringing colour to the plain black and whites. I love you sister, more that you ever know. And I’m looking forward to more insane and happy moments shared with you. HAPPY NEW YEAR!

With sincerity and love,
Secret Blogger ♥

season to be jolly-

2007-12-25T16:00:00.000+08:00

was told to go and read my darling's blog cuz she wrote something for me, so did baobei. i was so so touched after reading what they both wrote for me, and i felt bad at th same time. because, all this while th plans tht we made to meetup was canceled by me. making me feel like im not worth being friends with them, not being there for them like i used to. but i am really thankful &grateful for having met such girlfriends during my journey of growing up. i felt blessed having them by my side to guide me always. all i know is, out of th 17years of my life, our friendship was by far th best investment i've ever made! so for now i shall dedicate a little greeting for all of my bestest friends, whom never fails to be there for me, to show how much they mean to me. :D

*names are in alphabetical order.*

to AHTIONG(my sotong):

seriously, i've got so much to say but i dont know where to start. read cher's blog and she said you dont really like long post, so im gonna make it short and sweet for you. LOL! we met each other back then when we're both still in primary school, since primary 1 if im not wrong up till now. it's been 11years now, and im still counting and wishing tht our friendship will stay as strong as it is and remain th way it is, if not closer. i'm really thankful to god for letting me meet a friend as good as you to experience th journey through my teenage years. th times we shared together, especially during sec 3 &4 was th best of th best memories i could ever asked for. we both been having kinda of th same luck, in th sense of being asked to sit with th china duos back in 3E. hahahahs, and we kept exchanging seats just so we both could sit together. no doubt, our days during sec4 was also one of th best, especially with chermaine and tjah and th guys crapping with us. i missed those days. im glad tht so far, our friendship has been quite strong, eventhough we seem to meet less of each other as th days goes by. BUT, i promise you, no matter what happens i will never ever let this friendship of ours to fade away. AND! if it wasnt for you, i wouldnt have had tht cat tht you have sent to my house. though th cat is now gone, im still thankful to you. So once again, thankyou sotong for always being there for me, and for always being a goodfriend to me no matter what. KAMSAHAMIDA CINDY! :D

to CHERMAINE(baobei):

AHHH! finally my baobei's turn. first and for most, BAOBEI I MISS YOU! LOL> yar, havent been meeting up with her for god-knows-how-long lahh. our meetup plans always kena cancel, yar by me somemore. hahahahs.. okay okay, back to my mission. i've known you since i step foot in macpherson secondary school and that we're in th same class(1C) but i only got to know you closer when we were in sec 2C since you were sitting with gary behind my row(carmen, pramod &me). though at tht point of time i still havent really gotten to know you better, not until we both ended up in th same class(3E) again. though we sure have had a few disagreements and conflicts while we're back in sec3, we still managed to patch things up back again when we finally put aside our differences which end us up being th best of th bestfriends in sec4. sitting with you and ahtiong and tjah was super crazy and super fun! we kept gossiping and making th teachers angry as we kept talking and talking and talking during their lessons. :D my most favourite lesson would definitely be Food &Nutrition(F&N) class with mdm mazlinda nagging at us always bout our Olvl coursework and practical. and there were times when we would just confide in each other bout whats going on in our lives and stuff like that, when we would be updating each other bout tht new guy tht makes our hearts flutters. hahahahs, i still remember you telling me bout your tht navy guy, Dominic, and also tht black magnet, KC, back then.. we would share our tears together, our joy together and those fun time we had in secondary school. to tell you th truth, when im around you i felt safe, because you're like th elder sister to me watching over me ahtiong and tjah.. it feels great to know tht there will always be someone there for you when you need her, and for tht i really wanna thankyou for always been looking out for me all this while. with you around, my secondary school days just be more worth it. KAMSAHAMIDA baobei, for always being a goodfriend to me. we meetup soon okays, saturday i promise(: I LOVE YOU!

to JANN(scandalku):

ohgosh! i bet this one's gonna be a very long one since i've got soooo much to say bout our friendship, our times shared going crazy together.. but i would just make it a short and sweet one since i've got loads more to go.. this girlfriend of mine, known her when i was in secondary school but we only got closer when we were in sec3. yup can you believe that? LOL. we took 2 freaking years just to get to know each other even when we both were in th same malay class during sec 1 &2.. hahahahs.. no matter what, i am very happy to get to know you. i still remember th first time we went out together, just th 2 of us, going to bugis right after your SYF competition.. YES! directly after your SYF we went out to bugis to hangout and have fun together, we took neoprints too! up till now, it's been 3years now and im still counting and hoping tht it will go on and on till th end.. you're now one of my greatest girlfriends ever, in fact one of my sisters beside zara and mar. you had done th greatest and sweetest things for me tht i could have ever imagine.. i didnt think any friend could ever do tht to me, but you prove me wrong.. you've been there every moment of my life whenever im down or was at my worst.. you've seen th ugliest sight of me, tht is seeing me cry, and being there for me even when i pushed you away.. even though we've been thru some rough patch in our friendship, we manage to make things right and get back to th times we were happy again. i still remember the time when you surprise me at bedok green sec sch's gate right after my last Olvl paper. i was really surprised and happy tht you were there even when it was early in th morning.. i didnt think i would see you there, i didnt even know tht you were coming down to meet me tht day.. it was good seeing you in fact having you there with me was good enough.. you never fail to put a smile on my face and never fail to go crazy with me whenever we meetup or hangout.. yes, those good times spent with you was in fact th hardest to ever forget no matter where i am or how old i am.. im just soo glad to have you as my friend, really i am. i promise i would never ever let anything spoil th friendship tht we have built. thankyou sister, thankyou for everything tht you have done for me all this while.. im really appreciative of th things you have done to cheer me up or just to make me happy. no one could ever replace you, you'll always and forever will be my greatest friend ever.. SARANGHAEYO JANN! :D

to MAR(devilku):

DEVILKU! seems like you will never escape our teasing moments of you.. hahahahs, dont worry babe you'll get your revenge when th chances appear :D as like how i've known jann, you also one of th bestest friends ive ever met during my years in secondary school. and i really appreciate everything that you have done for me be it just to cheer me up or to make me laugh.. since it's your birthday today, i really hope you have enjoyed it to th upmost cause i know we still have yet to get you a proper birthday prezzie.. and yes, i also wanna thanked you for spending th days with me just to accompany me when my parents were gone, i know it was pretty boring here, but you still stayed on no matter what.. i'll promise th next time you sleepover it'll be better than th previous okays? i know your part may seems to be a little short, but no words can actually describe how grateful am i to have you as a friend. really i am. once again, HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY SISTERKU! i'll pray for your safety always and i hope tht ALLAH will bless you and your life with all his might.. KAMSAHAMIDA & SARANGHAEYO MAR! :D

to TIERS(darling):

satu cinta. means one love.

YES! i havent meetup this bitch(this is how we both address each other) for a veryy long time.. as you put it, yes it seems like a lifetime since we last met up. I MISS YOU SOO MUCH DARLING! ohgosh, without you my sec2 days would have been veryy BORING &LIFELESS! yes it would have been that way if there's no you in it.. i still remember tht time when i run to you and hug you when we received our end of year results and th class tht we're posted to in sec3.. i was so upset tht i wouldnt be in th same class as you ever again, i tot tht would have been th end lorr.. but we still kept our friendship going on strong even when we both are in different class liao.. even up to sec4 we were still having our chat session during recess.. it's been going on for 4years now, and im still counting and looking forward to more years ahead.. i really miss you lahh darling, im really looking forward to this Saturday yeah, we're gonna hangout together. YES I CANT WAIT! anyways, im really grateful for having you as my bestestfriend, no matter what happens i'll always keep this friendship going strong.. th times we shared would never be forgotten no matter what happens in th future.. even if i were to suffer from amnesia, i would still not want to forget th times i shared with you, th times when we headed down to bugis right after school, when we had fun going to th movies, taking neoprints and just hangout in th company of you and shuxian.. i really missed those times, i could never have asked for anything better than those times i had going crazy and lame with you.. thankyou, thankyou sooo much for everything tht you had done for me all this while.. for every single time you spend listening to my craps, and every single gift you bought me. KAMSAHAMIDA TIERS! i love you darling! :D

and lastly;

to ZEE(loverku):

like finally, im down to my last friend in my list of greetings. and this one is for none other than th girl who have never fail to be there for me no matter what. ZARA, this one goes out to you. okay, you're like th next longest friendship i've ever had besides ahtiong as you're also one of my primary school mate.. i've known you since we're still in primary 2 lagik, what more can i say, you like know almost everything bout me lahh kann.. yes we even had our dirty little secret together.. and im proud to be one of your goodfriends, even better a sister. eventhough we sorta drifted apart when we're in our early secondary school year, but we still made it back when we reached sec3.. up till now, our friendship has been exactly worth a decade.. and yes i was veryy happy to share my moments of joy and sadness with you, no doubt you were th person i always look for when im in deep shite or just at my very lowest point of my life.. i like th way you console me, because you're not one of th fakers who would pretend tht everything would be alright and just say stuff to just cheer me up, but you would actually join in with me as you know how it really feels to come from an incomplete family. tht is why i felt a veryy strong bond between us.. whenever you're around me, i felt tht i was in good hands and tht im safe as there is a person who would look out for me and would never let anyone try to hurt me or bring me down.. for tht i am veryy grateful to you.. i know we both have been through alot in this friendship, all th ups &downs tht were given to us by HIM above.. it was all a test to see whther our friendship will still stand as strong as it has been.. and im very glad tht we manage to pull through every each one of those tests.. you veryy well know tht you're like a sister to me, a sister who has been there to like look after and take care of me even when you yourself arent really in th best shape of your life.. im really thankful to HIM for letting me meet with such a goodfriend like you.. your friendship means a hell lot to me, and it was and always be th best damn thing tht ever happen in my life.. afterall, without you i'll lose a strong pillar of strength and hope, since you're like th person who knew most of th shite tht ever happened in my life.. thankyou, thankyou sister for everything tht you have done for me.. every single thing tht has made me smile and even things tht has made me cry, because for tht i manage to grew up and become stronger than what i was back then.. SARANGHAEYO ZARA! :D

[edited/]

birthday-

2007-12-24T16:00:00.000+08:00

i blog today,
just to post this special entry for this special someone.
it's her special day today. to be exact it's her 17th!
so here's a little shoutout for her(:

happy birthday to you~
happy birthday to you~~
happy birthday to MARZURA~~~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~!

my sister, my devil(:

like finally you're turning 17 :D

MAR &FEE(:

well, first of all i wanna wish you a very happy sweet 17th birthday.
i also wanna apologise if your prezzie has to be put on hold first, BIYANNAYO! ):
even so, we sisters do have something plan for you on your special day. hehehe.
to tell you th truth, im so glad and happy that i met you and we became friends. bestfriends in fact.
from then on we get to hangout alot, and we became as close as sisters of a diff parents. :D
no doubt th times i spent going gila-gila with you were th best and greatest memories stored in me.
especially during th period where we had our night classes, mayn i missed those times.
th times when we would purposely come to class late, just so to avoid tht person. hahahas.
anyways, i appreciate everything that you do for me all this while and really feel grateful to have you
as one of my veryy best girlfriends.
hope our friendship last forever & dont forget bout our promise when we turn 21(:
last of all, have a very blessed &joyous birthday today. may ALLAH bless you every moment of your life &may all your dreams and wishes come true on this very special day.
SARANGHAEYO DEVILKU(:

reminisce-

2007-12-22T17:56:00.000+08:00

Remember when,
we never needed each other.
The best of friends,
like sister and brother.
We understood,
we'd never be.... ALONE.

Those days are gone,
now i want you so much.
The night is long,
and i need your touch.
Dont know what to say.
i never meant to feel this way.
Dont want to be, alone tonight.

What can i do to make you mine?
Falling so hard, so fast this time.
What did i say, what did you do?
How did i fall in love with you?

I hear your voice,
and i start to tremble.
Brings back th child, i resemble.
I cannot pretend,
that we can still be friends.
Dont want to be, alone tonight.

What can i do to make you mine?
Falling so hard, so fast this time.
What did i say, what did you do?
How did i fall in love with you?

Oh, i want to say this right.
And it has to be tonight.
Just need you to know, oh yeah.
I dont wanna live this life,
i dont wanna say goodbye.
With you i wanna spend,
the rest of my life.

What can i do to make you mine?
Falling so hard, so fast this time.
What did i say, what did you do?
How did i fall in love with you?

What can i do to make you mine?
Falling so hard, so fast this time.
Everything's changed, we never knew.
How did i fall in love with you?

-i'm confused, but i miss you.

outdated-

2007-12-19T03:45:00.000+08:00

okay ive got to upload these outdated photos..
it's been 'sitting' in my folders, waiting to be post in my blog, for a veryy long time.
hahhahas, i know i know! my blog too is rotting. (^^,)
just didnt feel like blogging lahh, what to do..
anyways, do bare with it, th loading of th photos might take awhile.. enjoy(:

FEE &ZEE(:

ZEE &MAR(:

this was where we headed down to.

we gotten an eye candy at th starting point :D

spot th monkey.

mousedeer.

YIKES! CROCS ALERT!

otters.

th water feature behind us is pretty.

we heading to......

shesssh! th tiger is huge.

sedarekus! :D

hippo.

th reptiles.

emus.

kangaroo.

AUSTRALIAN OUTBACK.

wanna know where these crates heading off to?

yup! on first class somemore. hehehe

th 'taitai's for th day.

a little camwhoring wouldnt hurt, right?

1...... 2.....

JUMP!

we lovee th background, purrfect for photo-taking(:

we made a couple of friends along th way.

th monkey with th 'mask' on.

elephants.

baboons.

SOMEBODY, help my sisters!

our little pony.

i know they both are tired.

toilet-break.

gorilla?

cheetah? leopard?

that was her dare, pose for th cammy mar.. and snake.

another monkey?

snakes.

kimodo dragons.

giant tortoises.

tht baby org utan is sooo cute!

while waiting for th animal show to start.

no idea what this is.. some kind of a swan??

th talented sea lion.

looking smart as always in their 'tuxedo'.

polar bear.

Llamas.

peacock.

ending our journey soon.

well, not without a few more photos of us.

i love my sisters(:

random.

overall, i had a fun day.
kamsahamida sistersku :D

lastly, YOURS TRULY(:

frust-

2007-12-17T22:28:00.000+08:00

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!
really, i beg you to leave me alone.

i wanna cry it all out, hard. i really do.
it hurts to bare it all inside all this while )':

torn apart-

2007-12-07T22:05:00.000+08:00

Im back here just to inform that i wont be blogging for awhile.
maybe i need th time to be away for th meantime.
when im back, more photos &updates to be posted here.. so dont worry.
i promise, its gonna be just a short while (:

"in these meaningless hours,
i become more and more exhausted.
i cant feel it, i cant laugh, i cant smile,
tears just keep falling."

so cold, so lonely-

2007-12-02T18:06:00.000+08:00

The Loneliness.

Im sitting here, thinking bout
how im gonna do without,
YOU around in my life and how am i
i gonna get by.
Ain't got no days, just lonely nights.
you want th truth?
well girl im not alright.
feel out of place and out of time.
i think im gonna lose my mind.

so tell me how you feel, are you for real?
do you still think of me, baby still.
do you dream of me at night (like i dream of you all th time)
so let me tell you how it feels. (its like everyday i die)
wish i was dreaming but it was real. (when i open up my eyes)
let me tell you how it feels, (and dont see your pretty face)
i think that i will never love again.

I miss your face,
I miss your kiss,
I even miss the arguments
That we would have from time to time.
I miss you standing by my side,
I'm dying here its clear to see
There ain't no you, God knows there ain't no me.
Don't wanna live, I wanna die
If I cant have you in my life.

so tell me how you feel, are you for real?
do you still think of me, baby still.
do you dream of me at night (like i dream of you all th time)
so let me tell you how it feels. (its like everyday i die)
wish i was dreaming but it was real. (when i open up my eyes)
let me tell you how it feels, (and dont see your pretty face)
i think that i will never love again.

finally, she's 17-

2007-11-30T03:15:00.000+08:00

okay here are th photos that we took during Jann's bifdae surprise over @my crib..
too many photos, so i just let them show you how much fun we had..
im not in th mood to explain in details anyways.. but whatever it is, we sure enjoyed ourselves that day..
i think little laila did enjoyed herself too(:

little laila(:

she was behaving herself when me &mar took her out shopping for Jann's bifdae surprise stuff..

th food that we had ordered in.. YUMMY!

aunt zee: little Laila &aunt ura.

th helium balloon with th ugliest cow on it.
(sorry, we couldnt find any other cuter cows for you)

enjoying every moment of her 17th birthday..

nothing can separate us(:

th birthday girl(:

hope she likes th surprise we planned for her.

mama with th birthday girl.

candid shot.

th girls with my mama(:

th younger &th youngest(:

aint she th cutest little thing? :D

once again:
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY SISTER(:

company-

2007-11-29T15:07:00.000+08:00

well didnt do much this week, coping up at home most of th days..
its either i went out with mama or th sisters came over.. was feeling veryy fed up with th job thingy..
anyways, i will continue some other time i guess..
just not in th mood to update much, luckily got some photos if nt my blog cnfirm mendak kan?
LOL (^^,)

th scandal<3

munchy donuts(:

th devil<3

th loved ones.

outdated-

2007-11-12T08:57:00.000+08:00

like i've said it, i will sure to be back with th photos &updates on our raya outing on th 3nov..
well though we didnt go to th houses tht we had planned, th day was still alright to me..
firstly, they went to faiz' hse then to mine, then to faisal's, after tht to jann's place..
right after that was hafiz's new house, then to Parkway for dinner, hafizah's was next..
nas's house was our next destination before going to th finally hse, ideen's.
so yeah, though got a little pist during th journey, th day was still fun though..
its a little mundane cuz many of them could not make it..
i was reallyy looking forward to it, but sighs..
guess, it will always be like that.. last minute changes and stuff.. *disappointed.
but its not for me to get soo worked up anyways.. its their decisions..
okay enough of that, i'll let th photos to explain everything abt our outing(:
ohh, these photos are th only ones with me, lots more are with tjah..
i wonder when she gonna send me... i doubt it will be anytime soonn, so just enjoy yah!

the sisters. (zara's missing)

Selamat Hari Raya AidilFitri :DD

most favourite pic of us for the day(:

group photo @Faisal's house.

and this guy here is th lost siamang from th zoo :D

i'll love them forever(:

jann; zal; me

tjah; mar; me

group photo @Hafizah's crib.

another shot(:

one final group photo @Ideen's house.

exams over-

2007-11-11T12:27:00.000+08:00

YAYYFAY! WOOOOHHOOOOOO~!
had a blast sister's day outing on tuesday after my last Olvl paper, which is th MCQs..
seriously, i really needed th companion of th girls.. was so stressed bt th exams &all..
and furthermore, we havent been out together for such a longg time..
after my paper ended, was heading home when i got a little pleasant surprise..
there standing at th school gate was none other than my younger sister, JANN!
i was sooooooo delighted lahh kann.. cuz i didnt know she was coming, tot she had school..
so we walked to th busstop to head over my place first before meeting th other 2 of them..
it was drizzling tht morning, bt i was so relieved tht my exams are over tht i dont bother bout it..
while waiting for th bus, got a msg from baba saying mama has asked me to go down to meet her at geylang..
must be cuz she wants me to help with th carrying of th groceries i guess..
took th bus home to put our bags first, then cabbed our way down to pasar geylang..
mama was with maktimah having breakfast, since geylang dont hv light breakfast stuff,
so we head over to haig rd's banquet for our breakfast...
i had lemon chic rice, while sister had char siew chic rice..
when back to pasar geylang to help mama with th groceries, once done we head home..

both of us quickly got ready to head out to bugis for th date with th sisters..
we cabbed down to bugis since we're kinda late to take train or bus, mar reached bugis anyways..
saw her talking to this chinese guy, no idea for what, near th fountain..
plan was to catch th sneak preview of Bee Movie but unfortunately, there's no sneak previews..
so we headed down to suntec city once zara arrived, to catch th movie The Game Plan..
went into th cinema @3pm and waited for th movie to start..
DAMN! it was an AWESOME &touching movie i must say! me, jann &zara cried while watching.
cant help it lahh kann, its sweet &touching lahh tht movie.. Dwayne Johnson ROCKS lah!

my younger sister, my scandal (:

A GREAT MOVIE!

in th toilet after th movie..

first group photo (:

my elder sister, my lover (:

another perfect shot :DD

after th movie, we made our way down to esplanade to just walked around..
but we ended up at th starbucks near th Fullerton Hotel.. LOL.
its okay, its our favourite chilling place anyways..
as usual, oreo cheesecake is a must to order for us.. well actually 2oreo cheesecake for us(:
other goodies too; choc frappe!
as for me, its hot chocolate tht melts th heart(:
we spent almost a whole 3hrs in there, just sharing and camwhoring.. updates is a must!
its just so comforting.. th feeling gives me a sense of blissfulness &warmth..
its just so familiar, like back then.. so fun, so amazing.. th four of us always(:
decide to make our way home ard 9, but not forgetting to snap here &there when th chances came..
i love that morning, that day, that evening &that night.. sooo grateful :DDDD

saw this @Esplanade.

one shot near th merlion.

my youngest sister, my devil (:

told you starbucks is fav(:

HOT CHOCOLATE!

sistersku :D

&loads of snapshots!

zee; fee; jann &mar (:

mar &me(:

jann &zee(:

th girls who made my day ((:

p/s: promise i'll be back with th updates on our raya outing!
so do come back yah, i wont disappoint you people(:

UPDATES-

2007-11-11T06:17:00.000+08:00

okay im like finally back to update my blog..
so im updating for th sake of updating &my sisters been asking me to update. LOL.
okay first thing first, OLEVEL EXAMS ARE O-V-E-R!!!
i know i know, a tad too late to say this, but who cares its my blog(:
phew* now i can like calm my mind and clear th books away from my room..

anyways, 18oct was my pratical exam down @Bedok Green Sec...
so my dearest JANN accompanied me down to th school.. SHE'S THE BEST LAHH!
cuz she spent almost 3hrs waiting for me till i finish my practical.. :DD
despite having school on that day itself.. I LOVE HER LAH!
*sorry for th long tiring wait sister):
so after practical, made our way to my place to slack as usual..
then, we decide to head down to PP to get some stuff.. so we did..
got ready and off we went on our way..
bought my makeup stuff, she bought her clips.. then we gt some food stuff from cold storage..
head over to my crib to have our dinner, im making mac&cheese.. :DD
overall, it was an unplanned outing, but yet it was enjoyable for me..
and yes, i love my sisters(:

we're in th bus otw to PP.

i know, i looked very belo here.. :DD

THURSDAY- 25th OCT '07:
had geography paper today in th afternoon..
was accompanied by my AWESOME sister too! (see i told you i hv th greatest sisters)
at first i thought she was just gonna send me to th school, bt in th end she waited for me to end my paper..
was feeling veryy uncomfortable during th exam, cuz i was down with high fever &cough!
yar damn it! of all days, it had to jangkit me on my first exam paper day.. ):
was feeling shitty &i was sweating cold sweats..
first time ever, me sweating cold sweat when down with fever..
cuz seriously, i have nvr perspire cold sweat like this before, kinda got me worried..
mama wanted to bring me to th doctor before my exam bt i didnt want to..
as i knew if i were to go to th doc's then i wouldnt have th energy/mood sit for my paper alrdy..
doc's = medicine = sleepy/drowsy = no mood to sit for exam :DD
told mama we go on friday instead, i'll be fine for today after eating a couple of panadols.. (which i was sooo wrong! -__-'' )
so after paper, all i wanted was to head home &sleep! yes! sleep th sickness away..
sister came over my place while having to wait for faiz's to come &fetch her aft his pure geog paper..
so yeah.. chat a little with her, i didnt even know if whatever i chat with her makes sense.. LOL!
YES! no doubt im grateful to my sister for being there throughout th day for me..
seriously, i felt soo blissful having her to be by my side while im sick..
anyways, I LOVE YOU SISTER(:

we're in th school's toilet.. as you can see im sick ):

&this was after i woke up from my nap..
still feeling shitty though ):

p/s: &KAMSAHAMIDA SISTER FOR TH OHSOSWEET ENTRY :DD
(you should know who you are)

2007-11-10T14:11:00.000+08:00

Hello there! I'm the Invincible Catwoman, and I shall be the guest blogger for the day. On behalf of the owner of this blog, she would like to apologize for not updating the blog for several weeks, as she has been a thud bit busy mugging for her Olevel papers. And well, celebrating. Hehe. Rest assured, she will be blogging back here shortly.

Now, back to my post. Can't say I am going to blog about what I know about her, considering I did it previously. There's more to that post, but I guess, there's so much to tell, I wouldn't know where to begin. So I'll just keep this simple, aite?

I've known Fidah since we were in secondary one, shared the same Malay class. But due to separation of classes, we only got to really know each other and bonded in secondary three, when again, we had Mr Ismail as our Malay teacher. How did it all started? It only took a little courage to share our problems we kept deep inside, and of course, the complaints about the same person. And since then, a new friendship was created. From strangers, to classmates, to friends, bestfriends, and as good as a real sister to me.

Though it may seem like we have put up a happy image upfront, we did have our many arguments, disagreements as well as quarrels and internal conflicts. But at the end of the day, we always managed to work through it and stick together, till our very last breath. She is my stranger, my sister, a friend who would go through thick and thin together with me, and would go the extra mile just to assure that I am kept safe and happy, all the time. A sister, who always cares and love me for who I am, helps me whenever I'm in doubt and always there whenever I need her. And a part of another new family, we'll keep alive for the rest of our lives. And nothing, I mean nothing in this whole world (not even that dasmu) can ever come in between of this special friendship we share.

An unpredictable girl with a great personality, an unbelievable companion, and a girl with a very big heart, she is one of the most important people of my life, and something I'll treasure forever.

Nurafidah Kamis, I love you! And I will always stand by your side, no matter what. :)

With love,
the Invincible Catwoman.
Meow. (:

Eidul Fitri-

2007-10-16T14:33:00.000+08:00

current song: Teman Istimewa - Taufik Batisah.
current craving: fried carrot cake (:

2nd day of raya:
since yesterday th family didnt go out to raya, more of layan-ing th relatives coming over,
today th whole family went out to beraya lahh kann.
and baba had an off day today, so he drive Kak Mah's car for th jalan raya.
3cars, Kak Ilah &family, Kak Ain &family, lastly baba mama &me.
i was like having a great time in th car, had th back seat all to myself cuz th nieces went with Kak Ilah.
adik went in Kak Ain's car with hafiizd and naqi. i was seating veryyy comfortably.
no noise, no kecohness, no stuffyness. COOL!

first house went to Nenek Timah's place at tampines.
didnt really do anything, drink a little and chat here n there.
after awhile, we decided to head off to Makdek's place. got my first green packet for th day (:
since Makdek's already expecting us, we head off to her place at simei.
when we arrived, th house was packed with Cik Atem's relatives.
so we just find a place to seat and waited for them to leave..
whoaa Abg Saleh has got himself a new gf.. Kak Shidah was at home, while Abg Nasir was out i think..
ate a little and sat on th couch to munch on th kuih raya, well actually i ate only th kek marble (:
didnt really touch on th kuih raya or th biscuits..
YESSIR! gotten another green packet from Makdek.
i love going to her place, she always gives me money lahh kann even when its not raya. XD
ard 8plus, we head out for Nenek Mon's place plak, also at tampines.
and we had to hurry cuz baba's siblings would be coming over later..
arrived, th usual routine (salam, duduk minum &makan kuih, bobal) den we left th place.
it was quite a quick visit. cuz only nenek &th maid was at home, Mak Leha went out jln raya.

reached home, quickly help kakak to panaskan all th lauk and stuff for th relatives..
ard 9plus they arrived, even Makdek &family too(makdek, cikatem, abg saleh &gf plus kakshidah)
th house was packed with my cousin &aunts &uncles.
ibu &ayah was there too. (duh! ayah is baba's younger brother.)
was too stuffy in my baju kurung, so went to changed into home clothes. felt sooo much better.
around 10plus 11 th relatives decide to head home. that means.... collection lahh babe!
Macam biaser jugak, gotten from CikTipah &CikKadir, CikMalia, CikHasnah, Ibu&ayah &even Abg Saleh.
like th first time ever i get a green packet from Abg Saleh. hahahahs, dah kerje lahh kann mesti kene kasi (:
okay i guess thats all for now.

in th car.

3rd day or raya:
well today didnt really go to much house, only went to KakSam's house for th kenduri.
Kenduri for Makngah cuz she just came back from her ramadhan umrah.
was there from 3plus to 5plus. den went home with th parents.
both kakak went back to malaysia today, but Kak Ilah would be back on th 25th for some wedding thingy here in singapore.
i was feeling veryy lethargic lahh seyy. wasnt in th best mood actually.
after maghrib, CikIdah came over with her husband &her daughter(Kak Jannah).
we're actually expecting for Maktimah &her family over, cuz she said she would be coming over after maghrib.
skali, she sampai our place was already 10plus.. whoaa tuu bukan maghrib lagik, tu dh lepas isyak. LOL.
once th guests left our place, i quickly upload my pictures to th comp.
and so here i am blogging bout my raya this year. nto much excitement as i expected.
im really looking forward to having th raya outing with my friends.
but im wondering when? and do they really wanna have it this yr? cuz last yr they cancel it. ):
i really hope for th raya outing this year. i really do.
so to whoever that is planning for th raya outing, pleasepleaseplease make it happen :D

me &2 of my nieces.

after we came back from Bedok.

i was bored &tired.
camwhoring sure helps alot.

this baju kurung was actually 2yrs ago punye lahh kann.
still fits comfortably (:

never get enough of it.

Salam Lebaran-

2007-10-14T14:09:00.000+08:00

current song: Alone - Marques Houston.
current mood: tired, sleepy.

okay first of all, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIFITRI! minal aidin walfaizin(:
to all th muslimin dan muslimah here in singapore!
okay this entry gonna be ful of photos only. not much words.
gotta rush it cuz there gonna be relatives flocking my house for raya.
so enjoy yar. did a little camwhoring with my niece while i was free.

like aunt, like niece (:

a little of myself as always.

Raja Qailina bte Raja Qaharuddin.

me, myself and i.

they call me FEE (:

i love her, and she loves me (:

we're th babes in shades (:

aint we both looking so decently sweet? heheh

lastly, my mama dearest.
saranghaeyo mama (:

getting in th mood-

2007-10-13T13:14:00.000+08:00

current song: Sesuci Lebaran - Siti Nurhaliza
current mood: YAYY YAYY BESOK RAYA(:

today started off with major shite stuff happening to me. wth.....
i was all ready with everything done from face to hair and top, den when i was about to wear my skirt,
th zip of th skirt got stuck! i was like wtF!
seriously, this skirt have been giving me th 'stucked zip' problem from th first day i bought it. damn it mayn!
it was already 2:30pm, and im supposed to meet mar at 3pm at my hse busstop.
to make it worst, th 'postpone outing' msg didnt get to be sent to her, STUPID PHONE!
argh! was so fcuked up that i wanna spit out th vulgarities, but den i stop myself.
i realise th msg didnt get sent when i received mar's msg saying 'okay im on my way now.'
i was like 'heh? she didnt get my msg ke? i tot i sent her alread??'
told her my whole situation, in th end went to ransack my whole wardrobe to find an outfit to go out.
manage to just get into something that fits. but uncomfortably. -____-''
sister was sooo kind and patience enough to wait for me to get dress &get ready all over again.
THANKYOU! &BIYANNAYO FOR MAKING YOU WAIT. she's th best i tell you.
&i owe her an oreocheesecake treat! just tell me when you want it, den we go get it okay?

anyways went to raffles city to withdraw my money before heading off to city link mall.
cause i was getting my shades from SIX.. and th necklace too.
so yeah. got th stuff and we head for TKC next, sissy wanna get her shawl from there.
will cut th entry short cause im VERYYY tired.
so far ive gotten my whole shopping spree, but im still missing my liquid eyeliner. ):
okay lets do our raya stuff cheklist:
baju kurungs- CHECKED
accessories- CHECKED
new heels- CHECKED
new shades- CHECKED
handbag/clutch- CHECKED
perfume- CHECKED
shawl- CHECKED
okay i guess thats all baahh.. yupyup! like i said, only left with th eyeliner to get.
so yeah.. im ending it here now, need to help with th finishing touches in th house.
will update more soon okays.. hopefully(:
OH! OH! OH! before i forget, here's something that makes me happy!
KAMSAHAMIDA KAKAK FOR THAT AWESOME GUESS HANDBAG!
I LOVE IT! I LOVE IT! I LOVE IT! I LOVE IT!
and mind you, ITS ORIGINAL OKAYS! :D

that shades of mine (:

cityhall train station; shades are totally LOVED (:

simply love it (:

new shades + new necklace = HAPPY ME (:

my '07 raya collection; groovy black (:

baba was making that face when i showed him my collection. -_-''

first sis &her husband.
filling beras into th ketupat.

awesome outing-

2007-10-11T14:50:00.000+08:00

current song: Izinkan Ku Pergi - Kaer Azami
current mood: tired, sleepy.

today went for our raya heels shopping, with both of th younger sisters.
too bad zara couldnt join us, she had to be at her grandma's place to help clear up for raya.
i was feeling a little lethargic at first, i think cuz i didnt really get to sleep yesterday night.
keep getting awaken every 15mins or so of dozing off.
and furthermore, accompanied mama to pasar geylang in th morning.
yar! M O R N I N G. from 9plus all th way up till 12plus.
went to go buy adik's baju melayu first before heading off to buy th ingredients for raya's feast.
ohh! mama bought me this 2 veryy sweet shawl from first lady.
damn nice! and it suits all of my baju kurung this year. yupyup! all 4baju kurung! *beams*
once reached home, quickly bathe and changed. meeting mar at 2.30pm.
and yeah, she's ALWAYS late lahh kann.. LOL.
i was feeling very sleepy while waiting for her at th busstop opp. eunos primary.
luckily got th hot weather to keep me awake.

headed down to parkway parade first cuz i wanted to go and change my watch's battery.
well, i sure did a little shopping too at Dorothy. bought one top &2 tank top.
pretty much satisfied, we head off for suntec city den.
since jann said she has reserved th pair of heels she wanted at th novo outlet at suntec,
so all 3 of us headed down there.
mar &myself too wanted to get our raya heels. eyeing tinkerbell outlet. 3pairs @$53.90!
damn cheap right? one pair would approximately be ard 18bucks. okay lahh tuu..
jann got her heels already and off we went to marina's tinkerbell to get our heels.
didnt plan to get myself a very awesome deal at there.
bought 2pairs of heels, one brown &a black pair. *snigger*
i pity jann cuz she cn get even cheaper n nicer heels at tinkerbell instead of novo.
her pair of heels is like even more expensive than my 2pairs of heels. OH.MY.GOD(janice's style)
yar mayn! so th veryy mahal lahh kann.. alaa asalkan dier bahagia sudah lahh ehh..
since jann had to be home before buke, we quickly finish off our shopping spree.
mar &me headed down to changi airport to do our little "night class" studying.

break fast at BK and damn, we both were SOOOO bloated. seriously!
and i have no idea why im feeling so bloated, that is so not me.
at that point of time, was wishing for jann to be there as our tongsampah. we didnt manage to finish up.
we decided to walked around after did alittle of studying, went to th toilet to camwhore,
Cocoa Tree to buy stuff tht satisfy our sweet tooth &th viewing area to see if we cn lepak there.
unfortunately, th viewing area is "conquer" by group of minahs &ceenas so we decide to just walked around.
eating our gummytreats &jellybeans while walking around aimlessly, really cheered me up.
since its was kinda penuh with people there, we just head off for my crib.
to continue with our camwhoring, but this time with th heels we bought(:
bumped into AbgQahar while we're walking ard th airport. well not a surprise since he's working there.
reached my crib, and its already around 10.15.
we chat, gossiped, camwhored &literally went nuts together lahh kann..
she had fun camwhoring with my shawl around her head, trying to be 'rini' in th show Hikmah. LOL.
she's really giler i tell you, she keeps camwhoring and talking to my stuff eeyore(spiderdonk).
ohgosh! what telah happen to my little sister? someone pleasee seek help for her can? XD
ard 11plus she head for home, faiz fetched her home.
i quickly went to have a nice shower before heading off to my dreamland. was so tired lah.
but its nice to finally get to get out of th house. i can really go insane being in th house for tooo long.
anyways, i'll end here aites.. nightey nights people(:

its just the same us that you knew (:

we're reallyyy bloated. =X

break fast at that place(:

she said we went into th wrong cabin. LOL

told you she's nuts.. XD

OUR RAYA HEELS! (:

trying them on &not forgetting to camwhore.

th shawl mama bought for me (:

worn out-

2007-10-10T09:26:00.000+08:00

im soooo tired of being in this house.
never once they understood my feelings or why im behaving this way.
today, sarcasm was thrown at me-AGAIN.
it was so demoralising, like ive said nothing, NOTHING, i do will make a difference.
and it fcuking hurts to know that he will always have th attention.
tell me what i can do to make a diff? be rebellious like him?
be a total different me?! destroy my own principles &maruah?
ive suffered too much, yes too much.
pleaseee just show me th love like you showed him. im begging you both.
why cant you both just treat me and him th same, no favouritism?
ive numbed my heart to have any pity on him, so what if he's my brother?
ive made mistakes in pampering him all this while.
after what he did to me during my birthday week, i cant bring myself to even care for him.
its so frustrating to recall back what he did. my clothes, my presents. he ruined it all.
no one, and i mean NOT A SINGLE SOUL would understand my agony.
argh! why am i being so weak now?
im tired. im worn out. im broken. you just dont understand.

biyannayo-

2007-10-08T18:38:00.000+08:00

IM SORRY.
IM SORRY, IF WE'VE RUINED IT FOR YOU.
BIYANNAYO):

biased-

2007-10-07T01:31:00.000+08:00

i seriously dont know what im ought to do no more.
everyone in this house is being so unfair towards me.
why treat him with so much more love than me? im your child too!
freak lah! I HATE THIS, SERIOUSLY!
no matter what i do, it cant take that attention away from him. NOTHING.
oh come on. why you keep being SOOO biased? its so unfair.
why do you keep treating him nicely even after he's being a total ASSHOLE and disrespectful towards both of you?!
SO WHAT IF HE'S TH ONLY SON IN THIS HOUSE?! FCUK ARH!
that doesnt give him th rights to get and have EVERYTHING he wants &asked for.
you both are being VERYYYYY UNFAIR!
i'll be very content if you both were to treat me half as nice as you treat him. I WILL.
im just so crushed right now. nothing i do or achieve will let me have tht love you both showered him.
sometimes i just wish to end my life. at least it'll stop th hurting right away.
im tired of trying to be happy and cheerful. cause its not me right now, im not feeling like that.
im tired of always trying to be th nice one, but in th end im still not th favourite one.
argh! damn it lah! this is so frustrating.
you guys may say im childish fighting for love from my parents,
but dont you judge me if you dont have a SINGLE CLUE of what im going thru.
you wouldnt wanna mess with me right now, cause im seriously not IN TH MOOD.

argh!-

2007-10-06T16:25:00.000+08:00

I SERIOUSLY HOPE YOU'LL DISFIGURE YOUR FCUKING FACE WITH ALL OF THAT PIERCING!
DAMN IT! YOU NEVER FAIL TO PIST ME OFF!
ARGH! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH UHH!
WHEN WILL YOU LET ME OFF SIA?!?

cry-

2007-10-05T18:26:00.000+08:00

"The first cut is indeed, the deepest."

emotional-

2007-10-05T13:53:00.000+08:00

okay raya is just around th corner, and im not hyper bout it.
though get all new baju kurung but something just doesnt feel right.
i wonder what isit either. haiishh.
been feeling kinda emotional of late, have no idea why oso.
suddenly im missing tompok )':
this year, would be th second raya without him around. i miss him.
wonder what he's been up to up there......
gosh! what am i thinking mayn!
stop it fee! STOP IT lahh kann.
haiyaaaa. dont know lah, just dont feel happy somehow.
like as if inside of me feeling SO empty. yeah, very empty indeed.
and th thought of Olvl arriving within 2weeks time. GAHH!
now that seriously FREAKS ME OUT!
DIE! but i dont wish to fail again this time round.
i wanna go to poly. i really do. been eyeing on tht ECH course.
k i think i better stop this crap before i bore you even more.
take care for now. night people(:

"Cause a part of me is dead, and in th ground."

crushed-

2007-10-04T05:41:00.000+08:00

" IT'S NOT OKAY. IM NOT OKAY. "

dont ask me why, im just not feeling okay.
it sucks to feel this way. YOU SUCK!
ARGH! why does this ALWAYS happens to me? !
why do people keep doing this to me?
do i like trust people easily and readily?
im trying to give it a chance here. this friendship.
you very well should know what im like.
if i were to fall out with someone,
count yourself lucky if we get to be friends again.
whats th point of me gving it a try,
when you fcuking DONT TRUST &have a lil bit of FAITH in me.
why do you always doubt me? !
am i not worth your trust?
COME ON! give me a break.

home-

2007-10-03T17:40:00.000+08:00

HOME.
by Daughtry.

I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.

Well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.

The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love, it makes true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.

So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.

Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.

Oh, well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
I'm going home

i am so in lurve with this song. no idea why but i just am..

spiderDONK-

2007-10-03T14:20:00.000+08:00

current song: Growing Pains - Omarion

current mood: senseless.

LITTLE SISTER MADE MY DAY today, despite my clothes crisis tht im having earlier.

she came over to study with me, and asked me a few maths questions.

help her with those im sure of, some sure got my brain work SO HARD.

some i cant even answer them, well i know i can but th brain just not coorperating.

stop for awhile to break fast with mama n baba.

mama cooked th delicious sweet &sour fish. YUMMY! i loike!

anyways, we're slacking after buke, was chatting away literally going insane.

both of us we're talking about stuff that makes no sense..

EVERY sentence, there would be th word S E N S E. LOL. stupid i know.

but it was effing hilarious lahh kann.. i laughed like so hard. till stomach pain.

now im having my mense cramp.. first 3days, always like tht one.. haiyeerrr

well, all i know is that im happy and was very contented having her company.

saranghaeyo sister(:

it got me thinking, HARD!

she was camwhoring away.

i was really solving th question okay.

hahahahs. this picture got me laughing.

that is spiderDONK and his new buddy.

devil &angel. (:

music in me-

2007-10-02T11:51:00.000+08:00

current song: Hey There Delilah - Plain White T's

current mood: crazy, tiring.

went to joochiat today to teman mama go get th curtain materials.

study date with youngest sister was further postponed.

ajak th younger sister to join me and mama over at joochiat.

i was feeling alittle off mood at first, but den went crazy with th sister at th complex

while waiting for mama to finish off her curtain shopping.

and th frigging curtains are heavy okay! i wonder how much do we need to just

cover th goddamn windows in our living room.. aiyoh!

went home to put th stuff since its heavy like fcuk. went out again half an hour later.

to th bazaar with th sister to go get her ramly burger.

th food was hell ya tempting, but wasnt really in th mood to go absolutely crazy over them.

bought quite alot of food to bring home for mama n baba to buke later.

i was on my "break" cuz having tht time of th month this week.

SHUCKS! there goes my full month of fasting.. aiyeerr leceh nyee nk bayar balik nant.

took 63 home with th sister, interestingly, she was having her period too! -___-''

love her! love her! love her!

always there to brighten up my day (:

on our way to th bazaar.

always &forever will be (:

scandalku is LOVED!

she got me that cuz i was traumatise by somethg back den.

a little of self like always (:

favourite photo of the day(:

bazaar sucks-

2007-09-29T14:45:00.000+08:00

current song: Alone - Marques Houston

current mood: not quite in th mood.

well, im not gonna elaborate much on today's meetup.

all i can say is, im veryy happy to meet those that i havent seen for weeks,

like udin, rizal, nazmi, nizam, arif and shaikh..

well mostly th guys cuz seriously its been ages since we last met.

well, didnt really bought anything from th bazaar for myself..

wasnt really in th mood and was turn off by something..

so yeah. but no doubt it was fun whenever im with them..

well here are some shots we took during th meetup(:

a little trip to th ladies at SP.

i love them. but one is missing, JANNAH?!

satu love-

2007-09-27T14:21:00.000+08:00

current song: Circle - Marques Houston

current mood: tired, sleepy but happy(:

today has got to be th best day ever.

well, depends on how you would actually see it lahh kann..

to me, what more could be th best day other than spending time with th sisters?

errmmm, maybe my birthday chalet(LOL) but still, its th best lahh.

anyways,

break fasting today with th sisters at Pizzahut was a blast! like seriously!

th last time we 4 actually went out together was weeks ago.

and im really happy that we could spend time together,

you dont know how much it actually means to me(:

our plan to go bugis to shop was messed up,

cuz i had to rush down to Changi Hospital to visit ibu.

CikNah msged me saying she got admitted in this morning.

Mama, baba &me make a trip down to see what she's suffering from.

heard ayah saying its her painful migrain/headache acting up again.

just that this time, it got worst till she cudnt take it no more..

that explains th hospital and stuff.

when we reached there, th doc havent confirm wad th illness is yet..

so im hoping that she gonna be alright. ibu, i know youre gonna be fine((:

Baba and i left th hospital first since im off to meet th girls and he's off to work.

URGH! I HATE SIMEI! I HATE TH PPL THERE! ):

can you imagine, walking from eastpoint to th train station with ppl staring at you?

its like... wth? what am i? an alien? ohgoodness!

th train ride was sheer torture i tell you..

how much worst can it ever get? ohright, bumping into CB in th train. shucks!

haiishhh.. dont wanna talked bt th train ride..

anyways, i got a little happier when i see those familiar faces(:

yupyup! meetup with th girls at th control station.. felt so relief lahh kann.

we went straight to marina to kill time and just window shopping.

me n mar were browsing for heels &bags for raye.

well, nothing much that interest me. most of th shoes arent THAT glam for raye.

or lets just say werent th raye heels im searching for.

till we went into tinkerbell. they've got NICE HEELS lahh!

and they're having offer, 3pairs for $59.90. goodness! such a great deal.

but too bad none of those nice heels were in gold. so yeahh.. i'll consider to go black.

since we still got time before our buke time,

we walked to suntec to dine at th pizzahut there instead.

cuz i know there would not be as packed as th one at marina.

ohwells, cant blame us if we're th noisiest of th noisy group there.

jann &me literally went nuts with our lameass jokes &stupid moments. LOL.

like serious, even zara and mar was like curious seeing us so gilerNAKmampos.

we both were th ones who laughed th most of th most lahh kann. (like real gitu)

but seriously sey! &my stupid irritating cough has to come while im having fun):

stupid. i was coughing macam orang nak mampos seyy. bodoh tols!

yayyfay! ordered ALOT of food.

we're bloated by th time we reached to th last 2pieces of th pizza lahh.

and i drank a hell lot of water.. maybe due to th cough. *shakes head*

we spent like almost 2hours for our buke. ohgosh!

talked, laughed, gossip &just literally let loose.

it was nice having them around, them who gives me th sense of something so familiar.

after dinner, walked a little and decided to head home.

wasnt in th mood to went home early, wanted to ajak them lepak at starbucks.

but since jann has got to head home early and zara heading off too.

we decided to just end th day as it is.

gotten a free ride home. thanks mr squidwert &thanks too jann.

it felt weird i mean, th ride lahh kann. like im playing th gooseberry pulak.

&JANN, you still owe me my LOLLY hor(:

gahhh! i didnt get to buy my donuts today. now im depressed):

neminds, i'll get it th next time im out with them..

but for now, i think that is all. &pictures to enjoy =D

introducing my favourite girls:

TADAAAAAAA!

zee; my only lover.

jann; my scandal as always.

&mar; my devil forever.

she's my camwhoring partner.

&I LOVE HER(:

we look pretty much belo.

she's my model for th day. advertising her necklace. -__-''

but i know she's prettier than you, you, or YOU!

its never gonna be dull when im with her (:

she gives me strength even wen she's th one in need of it.

with her, im all set for life. (:

as always, th very giler &slenger moments of th sisters.

sempat plak kite snap gmbr ehh =D

i'll always &forever will love them (:

th secret affair.

she's my little sister, dont you dare bully her.

I'll bite hard if you do. :p

mar &fee (:

jann &zee (:

th 'act cute' moments of me &her. XD

we're th spastic giler nak mampos sisters.

wanna be our friend? LOL.

see, told you it isnt packed.

while waiting for buke time and th food.

like finally we got served (:

th only picture tht i took of th food, was too hungry to capture th rest.

i'll never get tired being around them (:

"they say...

if you love something, let it go.

and if it comes back then thats how you know.

................I say I moved on, till im reminded of you.

Can somebody help me? help me get out of this circle."

missing you-

2007-09-23T06:50:00.000+08:00

I dont know what im exactly feeling.
I dont know what i wanna express out.
All i know is that there's something in this heart of mine is feeling.
Sometimes im feeling sad,
Sometimes im feeling lonely & at times i wud feel tired.
Tired of trying make myself wait,
tired of trying to convince myself that one day you'll come back.
Reading the smses you sent me still makes my heart skip a beat.
th love, th warmthness, i still feel it too.
Its like as if time was turned back to that very day when i got to know you..
The words in there felt so real.
How i wish that those words would actually be true.. especially you.
I have been longing for someone like you to appear in my life.
Someone who says the sweetest words to me day &night.
Someone who would take care &love me with all his heart.
But now, it seems that we're acting like strangers.
I miss you.
I miss your calls... your smses.
I miss having you around.
well... i just miss you, i really do!
Its been a year now since we last talked or sms or even meetup.
If only you knew how i feel right now.
I would be jumping for joy when i see you online once in awhile.
I would be screaming my heart out if its you who sent me a sms.
Haiish.. but i know deep down, its all just something that i could only wish for..
None of it will actually come true lahh kann.
Silly of me to think that i could have you.
But still, i miss you so.. I really do!

*must i go for th one that i dont love but loves me just because i cant have th one that i love?

i am not that desperate you know.. so too bad looks like i have to disappoint you..*

tribute-

2007-09-21T13:12:00.000+08:00

current song: Manusia Biasa - Radja

current mood: happy.

th journey begins.

this entry is specially for th sisters; ZARA, JANN &MAR.

its thanks to them, my life seems more meaningful than ever.

its thanks to them, im able to just be myself without worrying what others say bout me.

its thanks to them, i see a whole new meaning to life than as it is.

its also thanks to them, i appreciate th greatest things in life &stay strong always.

it was never easy going thru what i went thru during those times..

but these girls make me believe that i can pull through it.

its cause for they always believe in me(:

i lovee each one of them. (:

ZARA; th eldest sister; my lover.

She never once left me when im in need of her.

she never once doubted me.

she has always have that faith &believe in me, even i myself dont think i had.

she never fails to be there with th listening ears, hearing me out.

she never fails to advice and cheer me up, making me smile.

she has never once fail to protect me, standing up for me no matter what.

she has always been there to ensure that me, jann &mar are alright.

being th eldest among us, she has been a very responsible one indeed.

when im around her, i seriously let my guard down &just let loose.

being around her makes me be th REAL me.

th one that im always keeping inside, th side which no one really know about.

well, not even my family nor th godsister whom i grew up with.

to me, she's th best girlfriend. th one whom keeps me going.

though now we seldom meetup but i know deep inside we both would always

remember one another and looking out for each other.

like what she always tell me:

"jauh di mata tapi dekat di hati. ingat aku selalu ade pat sebelah kau.

if you ever need someone, just remember me and dont hesitate to beep me."

KAMSAHAMIDA! &SARANGHAEYO SISTER(:

i trust her with my darkest secret.

i lovee her for th way she is.

she never fails to cheer me up.

JANN; th younger sister; my scandal.

She's another one of th girls who make me believe in myself.

for all this while, she has been there for me, be it my saddest or happiest moments.

she never fails to surprise me, never fails to make me happy.

i have always been closer to her and i lovee her for what she has done for me.

though we only been friends for 3years,

i feel that th bond between us is greater than ever.

there have been times where we both werent exactly on th same agreement,

but we still get back together no matter what happens.

this sister of mine have done th best to make me become what i am now.

Being around her and hanging out with her is just PURE FUN.

with her around, i can be th gila-gila me and set all of my worries aside.

she gives me th sense of being appreciated by someone who cares for you.

i dont know why, but i tend to like get emotional when i express my thoughts on her.

LOL. as in maybe its cause i really treasure our frenship..

serious, as im typing this my eyes gets watery.. hahahas..

to me, she's th greatest sister. th one who really go all out to cheer me.

all i wanna say is i really love her, and i really appreciate all th things she did for me.

KAMSAHAMIDA SISTER! &SARANGHAEYO(:

with her around, im set for life.

we're both th gile-st sisters.

MAR; th youngest sister; my devil.

She's th youngest among th four of us.

being th youngest, th elder would give way to her.

but at times i felt, she can be th older one when she gives really mature advices.

she and jann are about th same, and i got closer to her during sec3.

she too never fails to cheer me up, make me happy and surprises me.

she also never fails to be there for me with th listening ears.

always hearing me out and just being there for me.

i can really go lunatic with her whenever we go out together.

and she bullies me everytime lahh kann.. she's kan my devil, and im her angel.

we both can be very cooperative with each other when we wanna bully

either zara or jann.. tag team katekan.

no matter what, she has always been there when im in need of her,

be there even when i dont wanna let her see my weakest state.

to me, she's yet another greatest girlfriend. th one always bullying me and surprise me.

and i really appreciate whatever that she has doen for me all this while.

KAMSAHAMIDA SISTER! SARANGHAEYO(:

she told me im her 'everything-i-need' sister (:

she loves me for me.

they make me wanna go LALALALAS~

love them always (:

me, myself &i. (:

they make me believe in myself.

they always leave their footsteps in my life.

for we will always remain as sisters. (:

killingmachine-

2007-09-19T11:50:00.000+08:00

current song: Break My Heart - Monica

current crave: DONUTS(:

waaaahhh today is soooooo BORING lahh kann..

nothing to do, cant munch on food cuz of th fasting month, cant go out..

since im now like kinda broke, i think staying at home is th only choice i have..

hahahhas.. pathetic? i know.. but if u go out when ure broke oso no use..

you cant spend money to buy th things you see when you walked past it..

you cant do anything lor.. indeed when you have no money, you dont feel secure..

so stayed at home th whole of this week.. plans to go out was cancel..

and stuff clashes with my outings.. haishhh

i think its asking me to stay home and mug for my Olvl baah.. -.=''

well, i did mugged a lil.. at least better than nothing right..

was on th phone with jann while mugging.. was asking her bout those maths question..

haiyaaaa, like wad she says "you must loveeeee maths.." -___-''

i think for th sake of my Olvl, i'll try to lovee maths...

NO WAIT, it shud be i'll try to not dislike/hate maths.. heheheheh XD

i shud stop hating maths alread.

mugging in process. while in a call(:

even eeyore is muggin with me.. LOL.

eeyore: "maths hurts my little brain.. "

mug mug mug!

OHH! &I wanna say something..

I MISS CINDY TIERS VERYY MUCHH!

p/s: if you're reading this, i wanna say

that i really really miss you.. miss hanging out with you..

like th last time where we would always go out together.. just like when we're in sec2..

you still remember? i lovee you lahh woman..

sorry if every plan to meetup is backfired.. i hope to meet you sooonnn..

and bitch, tag me lei! hahahahs..

hectic-

2007-09-18T08:13:00.000+08:00

current song: Aku Ada Karena Kamu - Radja.

current crave: oreo cheesecake with choc frappe.

THURSDAY- 130907:

okay so it was th first day of ramadhan.. how did it go for me?
well... pretty much smooth for me, cuz th weeks before i did fast to payback
th missed out days from last yr's ramadhan..
first day of ramadhan and i get to buke(break th fast) with my parents..
its such a wonderful feeling, especially with baba around..
makes me feel so happy..
its such a blissful day and i felt like as if i was blessed on that very evening..
so after buke, did my prayers and stuff, had a sudden urge to bake cookies..
since i already bought th cookie mix..
so prepare th stuff for th cookies..
im baking CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES..
CHOC CHIP COOKIES ANYONE?? hehehehe
well didnt really manage to snap th whole procedure of making th cookies..
since im alone in th kitchen and i only have a pair of hands.. so yeahh..
manage to just get a snapshot of th first batch of cookies before they go into th oven(:
well th cookies taste so YUMMY lahh kann..
&mama, baba n adik not really a fan of those..
so that means..... all of th cookies are FOR ME! *evil laughter*

first batch;

SATURDAY-150907:

so today is th third day of fasting.. pretty much okay, didnt feel hungry during th day..

OHH! Kak Ilah came down from KL.. with abang Yah and her kids..

weeeeeeee! MAGGI MEE is here too(:

i simply adore that little brat! so playful yet adorable..

and he just knows how to make my day a better one =DD

kakak ajak me go to th bazaar at geylang at night, but wasnt really in th mood

to go out.. somemore its gonna be packed like fcuk oso.. didnt tag along..

well didnt do much today, werent really in a mood to mug intensely..

so just browse thru a few pages of th ss notes..

haiyaaaa, Olevel is in a one month plus!!

18Oct wud be my science practical exam.. gahhhhh!

and i havent had any clue of what im needed to know of th practical..

both for physics and biology.. one word: DIE!

neminds, i'll get thru it.. with th help of my friends and NOTES! (:

muhd hadif iman(:

he's very much LOVED by his CikFI(:

he so funny carrying those "weapons" of his tht makes

me wanna snap a couple shots of him..

hadif, deena &me(:

both are very much loved by me!

see! told you he nvr fails to make me laugh.

and this was before he left to go back to KL.

CikFI so gonna miss you. )':

Meow!

2007-09-15T18:14:00.000+08:00

Hello! Since the owner of this blog is too lazy to update, I shall gladly fill in for her! Now don't you worry, I bet after she reads this post, she'll be updating! No wait, cancel that. She'll just be all -YOU WOULDN'T WANT TO KNOW. Lalalas~

Hmm. Let's see, what do I write? I know! I'm gonna tell you what I know about this girl here! Get ready folks, this is going to be one hell of a looooonnnng post, so fasten your seat belts baby, cos you're in for a great ride. *erh, right.*

Ok. Here goes.

What do I know about Fi? So much! There's so much, I don't really know where to begin. Ohgosh. We've been friends for years, I guess I can say, she knows me the best among the rest. Yeah, she's the second oldest among our sisters, and sometimes she can be a big bully! But most of the time she's always the big sister with the advises, has your interests at heart, and would always look out for you. She's the greatest sister you'll ever have!

Her crib's one of our hang out places, the Headquaters, in case we're suffering from extreme boredom, or just felt like having a get together. At during our little gatherings, we'll always have the best times together. I love to take snapshots of her tak senonoh moments, like that time she put the chair in front of her door to prevent her brother from entering. She sat on the chair, with her bowl of noodles, and had that neurotic face expression, and screaming NOOOOO at the same time. And that time she had the "Don't touch my food" insane face, with the towel wrapped around her head. I'll post the shots, but I guess everyone had enough of them in my blog. Lalalas. No fret, she would take pictures of your gila moments too, like that time I had her bag over my head. BUT! Hehe. She forgot about posting that snapshot, so I'm save. :D

And when we go out sometimes, we'll always go crazy at the back of the bus! She's one of my camwhoring partners. She says each time the both of us take pictures, it looks good. Well of course! Cos the picture is taken with me! *ok, my self praising moment. hehe.*

But I love her crazy moments lah. We can just spend half the day laughing our butts off. She's one hell of a penyabar, so when she starts her expletives and vulgarities, and when she blows her top, that's one the ugly sides you wouldn't want to see. Seriously. You could lose your head, really. And you know what makes me love her more? She could always read my mind, and know what I'm thinking, and could always see through my fake smiles. You know what she does to make me feel better? Buy me food! Even if I don't have the appetite, she's always there to cheer me up, and listen to my crap and complaints. She's the best oie! And! Really, try her cooking. Shiok lah oie! I remembered that time she baked a chocolate cake and still had somemore in the frindge. Before she could say anything, I took that tupperwear, sat at the corner of her room and started munching away. Whoever tried to take it away from me, I'll bite that person.

AND! She's always listening and trying to think of solutions to those problems. She's always cheering me on, and sees the best of me. Giving the best advises, she makes me feel like I can count on her on anything! It's just the four of us against anything, overcoming obstacles, and we'll never let anything get between us! Ok, I know I'm getting nowhere in this entry, nyeah. Fi rocks my Dejavu eyeliner! (even though I hardly use eyeliner anyway. heh.)

Gosh, I've got so much to say, but I guess I'll just stop it here. Don't worry, since I closed my blogspot, you'll be seeing more of me here from time to time. So stay tune!

I won't reveal my name so I'll remain a mystery then. But here's a picture of me anyhow!

I think I'll call myself the Invincible Catwoman! Meow!

grocery-

2007-09-14T09:02:00.000+08:00

current song:Iris - Goo Goo Dolls

current mood:HUNGRY.. waiting patiently for BUKE TIME(:

today went to shengshiong supermarket with mama &baba..

as usual to go and buy our groceries for th month..

we shopped quite alot too! mama spent nearly 200bucks on th groceries..

whooaaa! thts alot lahh.. but i think its worth for amonth or more..

didnt really bought stuff for myself, apart from my monthly needs

and my fragrant shower gel and i bought COOKIE MIX(:

whooppidooo~~

well, nothing much to update oso, now waiting patiently to break fast..

mummy's cooking hotplate noodles for buke time((:

YUMMY! hungry hungry hungry~~

okay gotta go now, need to do my prayers..

no harm camwhoring a little right? (^^,)

mirror mirror~~

i lovee reflections (:

YES!

these smiles are just for you (:

could i? i wanna be if you'll let me (:

i sooo lovee my redjumper!

I SIMPLY ADORE THIS PICTURE (:

special-

2007-09-13T17:08:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to you~

happy birthday to you~~

happy birthday to mama~~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

gue sayang banget sama mama dongg (:

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT BULAN RAMADHAN!

dan selamat berpuase yar teman2 muslim ku (:

nighclass-

2007-09-13T14:18:00.000+08:00

as usual, every wed got night class..

and cam biase jugak, me &mar will be coming in to class late..

went galivanting at Parkway Parade before heading to class..

since im craving for my carrot cake, we headed to banquet..

ordered my white carrot cake while mar had her ice kachang...

super sinful i tell you.. with strawberry topping somemore.. -.=''

and my lil sister is ouh-so-sweet, she eat up th areas which got th strawberry toppings,

cuz she knows i dont really like sour stuff.. and th topping was, well sour.

KAMSAHAMIDA SISTER(:

went to get our little class munchies before heading off to ite simei..

bought croissants at delifrance, sister bought her oreo cheesecake at anderson.. its cheaper oso!

ard 6plus, we head for school.. and tjah keep sms-ing asking where weboth were..

LOL. we're evil i know.. but class is boring lahh kann.. den go early oso no use..

had a little 2hr test today, paper 1.. and i think i sucked at it..

so long never had tht kinda thingy.. ya lahh, tk skolah pe so no test lahh kann..

i was feeling super irritated by th stupid headache.. cm nk hentak seyy kepale..

and feeling a little bit feverish too.. haiyeerrr not again!

th troat's been rather itchy lately and nose been 'leaking' as well..

waaahhh. dont tell me, im gonna have it all 3 at once seyy, bleh mati uhh cm gini..

tjah said my voice dh cm ape.. ye lahh.. tuu tandanya flu's coming my way..

after class, faiz fetched mar home. so im left with tjah to take bus home..

arif didnt come to class as i think he's still sick.. well "rehabing" as wad he says..

wadever lahh ehh.. but dude, get well soon!

okay i think im off now. migrain migrain migrain!

my favourite (:

what we had.

a little of self again, as always (:

with th little sister (:

th maths paper tht got me spinning in th head.

jann says its kinda scary when i put it as my dp in msn -.=''

tiny tur
it kinda get on my nerves when you ask me quetions like that..
i mean, what am i to you? something for you to compete to own me?
im your friend too, so quit doubting my sincerity can?
make me feel as if my effort put into th frenship is not worth it..
yar i am closer to them, but that doesnt mean i am not close to you right?
and what kind of 'close as we used to be' do you actually mean? you're working, and stuff..
so is it my fault to hangout with my sisters?
you make it sound as if its all my fault, my fault for not msging you, my fault for not entertaining you
and also my fault for being close to them..
fine! my fault! my fault, all of it is my fault okay! happy lahh kann kamu?

weird + freakily fun day-

2007-09-11T13:41:00.000+08:00

current song: Take it to th Floor - (You Got Served OST)

current mood: insane, traumatised.

today went to Mustaffa Centre with baba &mama..

shopped for saree material to make my baju kurung.. =DD

it felt goood to go shopping with baba, cuz he will pay for everything..

yupyup! sure it does lahh kann..

if i knew i wud hv grab tht prettaye nice adidas tee for myself too.. ):

neminds.. there's always a next time right baba? heehee..

btu no matter wad, my 2 baju kurung gonna turn out NICE!

for sure lah, cuz th sarees i picked are very nice, & th material not rough oso..

thinking bout th shopping spree is just so wonderful((:

but.... im still TRAUMATISED!

GAHHHHHHHH!

those who knew bout it knows lahh kann.. aiyeerrrr!

i wanna erase it from my memory can? like ASAP lahh kann.. ):

really i wanna delete it away from my brain..

like scary ader, freaky pon ader.. *sighs*

anyways, did a lil camwhoring of course.. at home lahh!

i shall not recall whatever that happen just now EVER AGAIN!

tuu lahh asyik tease orang jek, kan dah kene pick up..

LOL. and here's a little of self as always(:

nurafidah (:

dont worry, im hanging on, still.

wonder what it feels like to be in your arm.... ?

replies-

2007-09-11T11:53:00.000+08:00

TAG REPLIES;

:) tjah; elehhh, moved jek tap tk update uat pe kan? aiyohh.. bikin kecoh uhh ni makchik.. kau pi lahh tukar ur blogskin, dah tonggang terbalik seyy.. inform th rest? alaa let tell read my tagboard themselves sua.. gue nggak punya masa dong mau bilang sama mereka, ada hal lain lagi penting sihh.. (:

:) tiers; BLEAHHH! its MY EEYORE((: cuz you have given it to me.. :p

:) zee; your comp dont allow you to read my archives? kesiann ehh.. LOL. neminds, nothing important lagpon.. YES! th donuts so syiok lahh! can we go and have it again? prettypleaseee(: ehh ader tau tk? cis! masuk bakul angkat sendiri nmpk.. kau cute? ye lahh.. tap aku lagik cute kan? muahahahs.. yupyup! I MISS YOU TOO! SARANGHAEYO SISTER(:

:) jann; aiyeeerr you give me too many tags.. i dont know which to reply oso.. but whatever it is you know i'll always be dere for my sister with th listening ears.. &i'll try my very best to help or do whatever that is within my means to cheer you up aites.. and PLEASEEE no more emo okay? i'll curl your hair for you again, i promise! SARANGHAEYO SISTER(:

:) xbla; you OMG for what? saw your picture alread? my dear friend very chio right? hahahhas.. I LOVE MY SOTONG(:

:) mar; weeeeeee~~ like finally you updated! best lahh kann! & kamsahamida for tagging(:

:) ur 'boyfren' ; okay but if you never leave ur name how am i supposed to know your blog? LOL. neminds, i'll figure it out.. and kamsahamida for tagging me(:

:) chermaine; awwww, my baobei so sweeett.. LOL. yupyup! monkeys love you too.

:) suhair; suhair DAH SAH! dah sah kamu gila sihh.. rofl.

someone's-

2007-09-10T04:43:00.000+08:00

its somebody's birthday today.. hahahs

like finally he turned 17 lahh kan.. XD

anyways, here's something for him..

happy birthday to you~

happy birthday to you~~

happy birthday to ARIF~~~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

little sister's dearest apek turned 17.

colours-

2007-09-08T12:16:00.000+08:00

colours predicted my personality... do you agree with it?

You are the sort of person that needs a peaceful environment.

You seek release from stress and freedom from conflicts and disagreements, of which you seem to have had more than your fair share.

But you are taking pains to control the situation by proceeding cautiously and you are right in doing so as you are a very sensitive person.

For some time now you have been feeling rather insecure.

You are looking for - and needing - an environment that can offer you roots, stability and a position that will relieve you of excess tension and stress.

It is hard for you to accept that your needs and desires are misunderstood by almost everyone within your sphere of influence and there is no one to rely on.

Your pent-up emotions and inherent egocentricity make you quick to take offence, but as matters stand you realise that you'll have to make the best of things as they are.

It is said that we are all influenced by our environment and indeed you are no exception.

It would seem at this time that even though you may be surrounded by people, you are experiencing an inner loneliness.(SO FCUKING TRUE!!)

Fortunately you are sufficiently strong minded to realise that life has a great deal to offer you and that you may miss your share of experiences if you fail to make the best use of every opportunity.

You therefore pursue your objectives with a fierce intensity and are prepared to commit yourself deeply and readily.

You believe that whatever you would like to do or think 'you can do' - you do!

It is because of this attitude that you may be considered by others as arrogant and even conceited, but its fair to say that whatever it is that you really want out of life you will put your heart and soul into it and will not take 'NO' for an answer.

You have so many ideas that you would like to revitalise but you need to realise a stable and peaceful condition to do so.

Once you can free yourself from all the aggravation and tension around you, you will make strides that may amaze you.

You will not be prevented from achieving all the things you so desire.

bored as hell-

2007-09-07T15:34:00.000+08:00

mar came over today for muggin session..

well, did some mugging but wasnt intense though..

we're kinda slacking alil bit.. well i did. mar was okay..

sometimes i think im still not on th right track for th Olvl yet..

and its getting nearer and nearer each fcuking day..

haiishh.. i dont know lahh wads gonna become of me..

anyways, we had our future talk! lol.

yar! sort of like a motivation for me.. for US!

yupyup! a genting trip only for th 4 of us aite sister?

i so cant wait lahh for all of us to turn 21.. well more of my lil sisters lahh

me &zara got our pass alread.. tap tkkn nk pi kite 2 jek kan..

th more th merrier.. (^^,)

"good times last forever,

i'll keep my heart with yours."

as usual-

2007-09-06T12:16:00.000+08:00

current song: Damn Regret - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

current mood: tired + fever.

okay how great! im having fever again.

aiseymama~~ i tot th fever has gone lahh seyy.. ):

so i doubt i'll be going to night class today..

neminds.. still got next week right? =D

aku lagik pandai, dah sakit2 pi makan lolly yg jann belik..

and i manage to finish it up in a day.. =X

i dont know why but i nvr really eat anything except for th lolly..

weird lahh seyy! sick somemore.. haiyeerrr~~

ahhh wadever lahh ehh.. badan aku lagpon.. LOL.

jann came over today but just for a lil while..

curled her hair for her.. and i think im gooooddd at it.. ((:

i know jann wud agree too! cuz she loves her curls.. wahahah!

its seriously veryy nicee..

th pic on th left is th longest layer..

right pic is th next layer..

TADAAA~~

long..... or,

short.. i know she loves it.

thats why she's happy.

doNUT-

2007-09-05T13:51:00.000+08:00

current song: Ada Cinta - Irwansyah &Acha

current mood: tired + sleepy.

weeeeeee~~ today was absolutely fun!

went out with th sisters, from bugis to raffles city den to marina square.

LOL. in th end, we're back to my crib..

mar &me went to bugis to go and get Udin's belated bifdae gift..

*BIYANNAYO UDIN!*

and i help jann purchased her little miss tee oso..

after that we head off to raffles city.. FOR TH DONUTS! =D

we're in th line queing for almost an hour plus... and its worth it!

though th flavours was limited due to th machine breakdown, were still contented!

unlike those stucked up morons behind us who keeps complaining and complaining..

stupid people lahh seyy.. blame everything on others but not them..

anyways, bought our donuts and off we went for our lunch at BK.

had my BKfish meal, mar as usual rendang jugak.. XD

jann had her hershey's pie and ended up not finishing it.. -_-

SARANGHAEYO sisters((:

after our lunch, planning to chill at Starbucks but it was packed..

so we headed out for th Starbucks at Marina Square..

walked over, jann wanted to chill at Macds cuz she need th plugs..

but none were found.. so we settle for Starbucks..

they both SOOOOO gundu lahh.. want to eat th donuts but go and sit inside..

pandai sekali sihh adik2 gue ni.. sugguh bijak sekali.. -__-

so we quickly finish up our choc frappe and start to gerak..

she's surfing th net.. viewing LOLA's blog..

i lovee my dollymolly sister((:

JANN &MAR.

heading for my crib to lepak and have th donuts..

mar cudnt stay long cuz she has been out since morning..

so she came by just to get her donuts and left.. while jann stayed..

as usual went kuku with this sister.. forever will lahh kann..

i as usual will be on her lappy if she bring it along..

and she with my desktop.. LOL.

ate our donuts and we both were high.. HIGH SUGAR INTAKE*

caution cuz its really veryy high.. i oso had my lolly tht jann bought for me..

lucky i ate th donuts with iced cold plain water.. so not tht very "sinful".

hahahahs.. jann ate it with mango juice somemore.. XD

ard 10pm she packed up and head home..

sent her to th busstop and waited till her bus came.. had a lil more chat..

overall today was awesome.. but it'll be more syiok if lover was dere..

haiishh.. lover now busywoman lahh kann..

with her taking care of ina and her supermaRYO..

now no time for me.. sad lahh seyy )':

but no matter what i know lover still loves me((:

and she knows i love her too!

JANN; MAR; FEE.

th superduperwhooper trios((:

i love her to bits &crumbs((:

donutFACTORY.

whooppidoooo~~

donuts are loved!!

sisters ku lahh sihh..

gue sayang banget sama mereka((:

i lovee this pic! (^^,)

*credits to jann for th photosnapshot*

fee &amp;amp;jann; forever will be((:

and a little of self as always((:

pictures-

2007-09-03T11:21:00.000+08:00

these pictures i just received from tiershy dear..

i know its quite some time ago, but wadever..

hahahahs.. th chalet was definitely FUN!

with th people i love celebrating my birthday with me..

hahah.. wad more can i ask right.. XD

SHE'S TH BEST((:

me and zara were sleepy.. hahahas..

those 2 behind are full of energy lor..

my precious ones((:

again, i lovee them all((:

LOL. i dont know why th pic is like tht.. XD

cher's nail colour abit th scary to me.. heehee

special-

2007-09-01T15:52:00.000+08:00

today is a very special day for someone,

this someone has been very good to me.. nicee too.

&has been my dearest friend ever since we're in primary 1..

up until now, it has been 11years worth of friendship((:

and im still counting.. we both are..

may we be always keeping in touch with each other!

and i will always love this friend of mine.. so here goes~~

happy birthday to you~

happy birthday to you~~

happy birthday to sotong~~~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY CINDY!!

for she always be th dear friend to me((:

my dear friend here is damn pretty wor!

monggel-

2007-09-01T12:39:00.000+08:00

i wanna wish this to th little cutie pie; LAILA AUNI QISTINA((:

HAPPY 1st BIRTHDAY LAILA!

happy birthday to you~~

happy birthday to you~~~

happy birthday to LAILA~~~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

see! aint she just UBER adorable??

(^^,)

*this picture is taken from mar's blog*

bored-

2007-08-30T16:33:00.000+08:00

current song: Haunted - Rihanna

current mood: MENDAK GILER XD

sister came over today.. she brought along her lappy too((:

yippeeeeeee~~

i was on her lappy and she was on my desktop.. LOL.

had like so much to update but den again, we didnt really talk much..

went crazy with each other lor..

we were chatting at msn wen we're in th same room.. -_-

told you we both were crazy.. hahahahahs..

anyways, sister dont think too much lahh ehh.. if its meant to be den its good..

but if its not den dont worry.. bnyk lagik kumbang pat dunia nie..

bukan dier sorang jek lahh kann.. XD

forever will be us((:

she's forever loved((:

I LOVEE MY EEYORE!

its just ouh-so-huggable((:

night class havoc-

2007-08-30T14:42:00.000+08:00

current song: With Love - Hilary Duff

current crave: mocha frappe &doughnuts.

went to parkway today before heading for our class..

mar was sleepy i think cuz she kept yawning NON-STOP.

hahhas.. went for our late lunch at banquet with mar..

finally had my carrot cake.. YUMMAYE!

after that went to DP to window shop, but bought myself 3tees..

temptation babe! TEMPTATION always gets th best of me..

hhahas, and we're alread late.. like always..

so quickly headed to starbucks to get our oreo cheesecake

and my new fav chocolate frappe((:

weeeeeee~~ YUM YUM YUM!

night class was as always sleepy as ever and vector was yest. topic..

die! i hate vector! i hate probability!

journey home was so silent.. three of us were sleepy..

and little sis's apek was sick.. due to excessive delifrance food.. -.-''

took 63 home.. almost dozed off in th bus but cudnt..

i was afraid that i might miss my stop.. (^^,)

okay. here are some snapshots that we took =DD

forever my sister lovee((:

PP here we come((:

that moon look so sad and dull.

i find this photo very th cool.. dont you think so?

FEE &MAR((:

my oreocheesecake((:

these are MINE. *evil laughter*

little sister and her dearest apek..

kesian ehh sakit.. muahahaha.

th red tee that i bought.. there's yellow &turquoise too((:

tired-

2007-08-30T02:47:00.000+08:00

current song:Dignity - Hilary Duff

current crave: fried carrot cake.

i lovee this photo((:

but my sisters say i look like _____ here. ):

why are my eyes looking so weird in here?

show me your lovee((:

my lover says, she's worth my love. (^^,)

no doubt they have always been there for me((: